Sheilded (Steve x reader)

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Steve was frozen still. You couldn't help but move. The avengers tower was deathly silent. Clints family were gone, he hadnt come back. Nat was dead, Tony still hadn't reappeared meaning he most likely dead. Bucky was gone, Peggy too. You tried to steady your breathing a little and ignore the push of the slight hysterical madness that was threatening do you to just destroy what was left, live up to your mothers expectations.

"We need the gauntlet back." Bruce said quietly.

"Loki's dead." You mumbled the image of him going pale not leaving your head.

"And our fucking daughters turned to dust!" Steve snapped. You blinked at him in shock at his tone, he didnt apologise merely looked away. Thor didn't look too good either.

"Ill get the gauntlet back, earth is going to go into panic mode, their going to need the few avengers they have left here." Thor said standing, he squeezed your shoulder as he passed.

"We need to find Clint too." Bruce said teirdly. You felt old. With a sigh you slipped to the floor, your arms hugging your knees.

"I dont want to do this." The words were quiet and barely made it past your lips. The two of them turned to look at you. "I've had enough." Your hands twitched, stained with so much blood, including your own family. Steve looked at you wanting nothing more than to scoop you up and tell you it was okay. But it wasn't. He didnt know what to do, he knew he should be there for you and it wasn't that he blamed you.

More wished you'd let him help, so this wouldn't have happened. Bruce seeing Steve hadnt moved crouched down in front of you. "Y/n, we don't know that Tony's not out there. You have to try, yeah? What would he say to you now?"

"Probably about having a whiskey and getting on with it." You sniffed. Bruce chuckled.

"Yeah he would wouldn't he." You managed a small smile. "You need to bring them back for us. You and Steve are all the world has now." You closed your eyes, tears trickling down your face as you met Steve's gaze. "You have us, we'll all be fine eventually, when we fixed this." Your eyes met Steve's.

"I dont have Steve. I havent since the explosion that night in the Manor." Steve's jaw clenched a little but he just looked guilty. "I need dad here, he's the one person that has never left me alone! The one person I know would never shoulder me out." You stood up quickly. "I need him." Bruce tried to reach out to you but you pulled away. Your eyes couldnt settle, breathing irregular.

You felt a pair of arms wrap around your wasit from behind, a chin resting on your hair. You'd have recognised your husband anywhere. "I'm sorry." He muttered. "I love you more than anything, you know that? I - I just I don't know how to deal with everything. I pretend I do, have to be the captain but I should have known I could let it down when I'm with you. I just- i wanted to he the strong one and I guess I hurt us both for it."

You spun round and caught his lips in a messy kiss, you heard Bruce leave. His hands roaming your body took the weight of the crushing world off for a little while. As he pushed you back onto the sofa you didnt stop him. Probably wasn't the best use of borrowed time but you'd figure out all the shit in the morning.

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It was cold and damp when you woke, panic, rushed you instantly ad you realised you were in a cell. You pinched yourself hard to make sure you were awake before looking around. It had a nice bed, stuff in, and a breakfast laid out in a tray by the door, a note balanced ontop of a flower. You took the paper confused.

Darling,
I know this is finally the last straw for us, and I doubt you'll ever forgive me now. I know you killed your mother, and as the prophecy she made has started to come true I need to make sure I can save you and the world. I know you were slipping, and last night when you were asleep you were talking about your madness. I can't risk it y/n, I love you but I can't risk it. I dont want to lock you up, I really don't. But I- I didnt know what else to do. I'm sorry, the guilt is eating me alive as I do it. The pain knowing we'll never be the same. But its for your own good, I know you wouldn't be able to live with yourself either if you went through on your impulses. This isn't a punishment, rather a precaution. Again I am so sorry.
With all the love my heart has left to give Steve x