A World Behind A Wish 【MewGulf】

🌠Chapter Three 🌠

-------------------Gulf's POV----------------------

I spend that day watching and reading everything about the other me, it felt so weird reading information about someone who has not only the same appearance and full name but also same birth date, blood type and we even like the same drink and food, it scared me and even wanted to stop reading more about him yet there is one difference between us two, our character, he is known as a kind sincere and dense person, well he is so skilled when it comes to acting but his personality is the opposite of me and that's because we have different life.

He grew up in a loving supportive family, has a great friends, got a great job and became so popular in no time, he finished his studies, has his own condo and a good manager, speaking of him, he did come visit some time after noon, I tried explaining everything but he brushed it as a joke and started complimenting my acting and left me the schedule starting Monday, it's true I decided to be the other Gulf until I find him but I'm not sure how to face all the people I'm going to meet, or how to stand in front of the camera

I spend the next day watching some of his high rated series, movies and TV shows, he looked so professional, he was shining when acting, every time I see him on screen, I can feel the huge gap between us, between our lives, our status, our talents which makes me even more depressed than before, I also was surprised to find his fridge full of all kind of things which mean he could cook and eat healthy food

When I wanted to rest my eyes, I walked around the condo searching every room, there was his super big bedroom, two guest rooms, a large bathroom and an office, more like a library, he had so many books, there was also a section that have many drama and movies scripts, I also found a section that was full of pictures for his modeling job, I sat on the sofa checking the scripts, a little cold yet refreshing wind came through the half open window made me feel a bit relaxed, I looked around the room and that's when I noticed a big frame

At first it looked normal, with a picture of a beautiful sunset yet as a got closer I noticed that there was an unusual space between the wall and the frame, the moment I touched it a notebook fell down taking me aback for a moment

"this must be a private notebook since he was hiding it" I starred at it for a while

"I'm sorry, I'm just taking a peek, maybe this will help me find you" I apologized opening, I started reading the first few pages

"this is a diary" I was stunned as I read everything, he wrote about his feelings and things he went through from time to time, he started writing it when he was 19, he talked about his family and two close friends who kept encouraging him to become an actor and how he was enjoying it as a new experience in his life, after reading few more pages

"... I'm really enjoying trying all kind of new roles, I'm somehow getting more and more popular, many people started to recognize me when I walk outside with my friends, I was even stopped by a group of female asking for autograph and picture when I was in university and because of that I was late for an important lecture..." after reading some more I could understand that he wasn't really happy about acting

"... it's been almost 4 years since I celebrated a normal birthday with my family and close friends, I got so busy right after graduation and only could see my family once in two weeks, even though my manager make sure to give me arrest day every week yet I find myself so exhausted to even go out, I really miss them..." I was more shocked, somehow I could feel his sadness from him writing, maybe we also shared the same dream, when I read the last page I became so sure of that

"... this is not the life I wanted, I hate my current life, I can't do anything freely, I get surrounded everywhere I go, I forgot the last time I had a private time with my family and friends, they even sounded sad when they called me yesterday, the scary letters and gifts keeps appearing in front of my door, I get stalked every time I go out, the media never stopped chasing me revealing everything about my life and lately I feel like I'm glared at all lot, it seem that there is some people who really hate me and that makes me even more afraid, all I wanted was to have a normal life, work in my father's company, get a wife, have a couple of kids and live peacefully with my family for the rest of my life but it's too late now... too late..." I leaned back having mixed feelings about what I just read