Third Times The Charm

5

TW: slight nsfw, indicated rape

I couldn't get those words out of my head: "I think it's too late for that." Was I really that stupid? Thank god I had no classes today. That would've been bad, missing classes on my second day.

I'm currently lying in bed it's 2am and I have classes at 9am, but I can't stop thinking. I like Clay's touch, I shouldn't like Clay's touch.
I remember about his book, I nearly forgot to read it today.

I grabbed it from the drawer beside my bed and began to read:
'31st of August 2018.'

'I talked to him today, we had a few classes together and we sat together at lunch. He's nice. I think I might be falling for him. My mom would be so ashamed that I'm giving into love but I like being around him, we held hands at the lunch table. I felt safe in his hands, comfortable. I never feel comfortable at home. It's different recently. It's cold and sad. I don't know what changed, but he makes me feel warm.'

I hate that he felt that way at home. He deserved to be happy. It hurt knowing what came next and it hurt knowing he loved someone else. I soon fell asleep in the comfort of thinking about him. I really missed him. I completely forgot about Clay and all the guilt I had.

It was like before, before I fucked up. When I had him in my arms, and he made every worry go away. My love.

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I woke up to Karl jumping on my bed. "Come on, I have surprise for us!" I groaned in response. "Come on~ get up." Before I could answer I had been dragged out of bed and thrown onto the floor.

"Here put this on, we're matching because Sap and Alex are making me wear it so you're wearing it too." He threw me a black pleated skirt and oversized grey hoodie. "What, no." "Please George~" "no, no way." "But I have to and I don't want to be alone." He looked at me with puppy eyes. "Fine. But you owe me."

I looked in the mirror twisting to see every angle. I kind of like it but I'd never admit it. Fuck it, I might as well wear it with confidence if I'm going to wear it at all.

Karl burst into the bathroom grabbing my arm and dragging me out of the dorm. "Karl slow down!" "No we'll be late!" "I didn't even eat breakfast." "Here!" He stopped and threw me a cereal bar from his bag. "Thanks" I shrugged, peeling open my breakfast and eating it while following Karl down the hall.

We got to the classroom. An introduction to directing. Karl ran over at sat with Sap and Alex. I watched as they looked Karl up and down, examining his body as if he was an expensive porcelain doll.

I slowly walked over sitting between Clay and Sap. "Looking good Gogy!" Sap whistled, earning slaps from both Alex and Karl. I giggled at them looking over to Clay. He was staring at me with a blush on his cheeks.

"Shut your mouth, you'll swallow a fly." "Hi Georgie." He cooed. "Good morning Clay" "Not my name." "Not mine either." I retaliated, slumping into my chair and turning my attention to the teacher that just walked in.

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It's been about forty minutes into class and I feel someone grab my hand. I look over to see Clay holding my hand with a small smirk on his face. I felt bad but his hands felt like his. He was all I could think about.

I pulled my hand away and turned my attention back to the front of the room. I felt his stare but I couldn't give in. It doesn't matter how much I want him, it's selfish. I hung my head down for the rest of the class.