Fanboy (Albedo X Sucrose)

06

I was sitting at Kaeya's couch, being carefully curated by him. My leg ached, everything ached, and it hurt me more to remember that scene. I regret that I believed that I could find it, I regret that I believed that I had a chance. Kaeya had seen me cry many times, and today was too.

—“Hey, what's going on with you, Sucrose?” —Kaeya noticed I was not feeling good.

—“It's nothing, Kaeya” —I lied.

—“Who the fuck did hurt you, Sucrose?” —He got very aggressive out of nowhere.

—“Calm down! It's nothing, I said it!” — I wanted him to calm down, he made me anxious all of sudden.

—“I know you better than anyone in the world, you're crying because you're heartbroken or someone did something really mean to you... So what happened?” —He knew the truth.

Why should I be sad about what happened that day? Besides showing him that since he left, I've gotten dumber to the point of believing that he could be a quality idol? Why does it make me so sad that he's already taken?  It's not like I've had a chance, and it's not that I like him, because dating is strictly forbidden. But why do I feel like this? To the degree of crying at my brother's house?

—“H-He has a girlfriend already...” —I said sobbing. —“And she called him while we were talking... But of course, that's not why I feel that way, it's just-” —I was cut off by him.

—“It's just you fell in love with him in every second you couldn't see him since that day... And now you can't go back and erase that feeling because without it, you feel...” —He spoke.

—“useless.” — We talked at the same time, realizing we both feel that way.

I would love to have never met him, and not be suffering like this today, but if it had been for him, maybe that day I... Maybe it's better for me not to remember. Even after so many years, it is a wound that is still fresh. Can I ever get over it? My body started to shake, but a warm hug from Kaeya managed to comfort me.

—“Sweet Sister Sucrose, don't think about it again” — Whispered in my ear. —“Please, don't think about it again, the only thing you will achieve is torment yourself for something of which you are not to blame.” — He said to me while stroking my back. I always did that when those memories came to my mind, and it always managed to calm me down.

—“Big Brother Kaeya...” —I said with my broken voice. —“Hold me tight, and never let go, please”

—“Eventually I'll have to let you go, but for today, don't think about it” — He told me, without letting go.

—“It's not a good time for joking, Kaeya” — I said to him.

—“Am I joking?” — Finally turned away from me. —“Sucrose, life cursed me being three years older than you, and you know what that means.”

—“It's something I don't want to happen, I want to go before you.” —His words hurt me.

—“But it is fate that will decide, maybe I go first, maybe you go first, I honestly do not know what will happen, but if I am the one who leaves first, remember my words” —He said before continuing to heal me.

I felt so bad, I felt so lonely, but I have him. I didn't want to bother him too much, so I asked him to take me to the apartment where Dandelion was staying at. He agreed.

Kaeya's car was not very flashy, so she was not afraid of being discovered by him. And the road was quiet. Neither of us spoke, until I broke the silence.

—“How did you and Rosaria start your relationship?” —I asked genuinely.

—“We met in training, and I fell in love with her and her charisma, and it wasn't that long until I asked her out.” —He answered.

—“Yes, but how did you ask her out?” —I needed specific answers.

—“Diluc is a gossip with no regrets” —He said while moving the steering wheel. —“I told him that 'I found the girl with purple hair attractive and interesting’ and he telled Victoria from LOVESiCK, and Victoria telled Rosaria and she asked to me if she was right”

—“And she were?” — I asked.

—“Are you stupid or do you fake it?” — He answered me in a mocking tone. —“We have three years of relationship, of course she was right. I just said ‘Yes, I like you so much and I would love to date you”

—“And what did she say!?” — I was excited to hear the answer.

—“Really, Sucrose?” — I had already filled his patience. —“We are dating since, why you ask such a question?”

—“You're right” —I answered.

We got to the apartment, I asked him not to follow me, but he did it anyway. He helped me up the stairs, and he knocked on the door for me. Noelle opened the door, and did not ask anything, since she knew what had happened, and knew the type of relationship I had with Kaeya.

And since the others were already asleep, she allowed Kaeya to pass, but he refused and left. I didn't feel like staying and chatting either, but Noelle asked me to stay.

—“And how was your date with the blonde guy?” —She asked.

—“He already has a girlfriend, and I don't want to be in the way, especially when his girlfriend is a witch” — I said placing my hands on my cheeks.

—“Mona Megistus?” — She was surprised. —“But how did they end up together?”

The day I hid from the sasaeng I stopped by Albedo's store and screamed at Mona to help me hide, but she didn't listen to me. She came out angry because the two of them had a little fight over "business stuff". Then the next day, Albedo went to apologize to Mona, and He realized that she is a wonderful woman, and they began their relationship.

—“All of that stuff doesn't matter today, Sucrose” —She said to me.

—“Why so, Noelle?” —I was confused.

—“We are going to start working on our comeback* tomorrow”