Fanboy (Albedo X Sucrose)

09

I always believed that a relationship would be simple when there is a connection, but between Mona and I there was nothing. Just the pieces of something that could have been, but wasn't. And it doesn't matter, because my heart is still in my chest.

—“Albedo, my love for you is eternal like the sky and the universe, but yours ...” —Her voice was getting broken. —“Your love isn't mine, and I know it's none of my business, but this can't work.”

—“What do you mean, we've been dating for a whole month, what's wrong with me?” —I was confused. —“Do you need flowers? Ask them, or you want breakfast? Ask it, Astrolabos, I can't guess it by myself.”

Was I wrong? What did she want? She's so valuable, and I'm surprised she's like that today. I'm so confused. I don't know what am I doing wrong.

—“Albedo, I can't be your tool anymore” —She coldly said. —“I can't get that Idol out of your head, and you know what? I'm on the way.”

—“What do you mean once again, Astrolabos?” — I was running out of patience.

—“Because the way you look at her isn't the same when you look at me, and because your always word is her, just her.” —Mona replied. —“You are happy thinking of her, and you suffer thinking of me, that is the reason why this does not work”.

—“Mona, it's working, our relationship is working, isn't it?” — I tried to comfort her. She was getting sadder word by word.

—“I love you” —She said. —“But this can't go on, I'm a rock in your way”.

What has Albedo done wrong? What the hell have you done, Albedo? You're such a fool that you can't get the minty haired girl out of your mind. Coward. Speak, express yourself, tell her all that you feel now, because when Astrolabos leaves, there will be no going back.

My hands seemed to be tied, as did my mouth. I wanted to tell her that I appreciated her, and that I wanted her to be happy even if I wasn't. How does love work? Could Astrolabos show me?

—“Mona” —Finally my mouth could speak. —“Let's...” — A chill ran through my body, but I felt like I was doing the right thing. —“Let's not hold resentment towards the other after this day”

—“It's a deal, Princeps Cretaceus” — She just answered.

Doing a big noice with her high heel shoes, she left the store, just as she left my life. It seemed like my life was over, but she had come in. The girl I thought was missing was here again. That girl with the mint hair. Sucrose, the Idol of Dandelion. I forgot what had just happened. She has that super power.

—“Good morning, Albedo” —She said while taking off her mask. —“Do you have a moment?”

—“Sure..”—I answered.

When I finished fixing some things, I went to the table where she was sitting. I brought her a coffee, but she turned it down.

—“It's been a while, right?” —She said.

—“Are you feeling about your leg?” —I asked, worried.

—“Of course I am, I wouldn't be here if I wasn't.” —She said to me in a joke tone.

Silence returned once more. And I felt that if I didn't do something, that's how the moment would be for a long time. Had the flowers arrived? Is she mad at me? Did she realize it was me? I had plenty of questions, and somehow I still couldn't ask her for anything.

The unbreakable silence filling the store at every edge. I know she wanted to speak, I know she had questions too. I had just ended a relationship, and the reason why I ended was right in front of me. My feelings were so confusing.

And on the other hand, the invasive doubt in my heart lay. I wanted to talk to Sucrose, I wanted to tell him everything, I wanted to ask him so many things. And then, she broke the unbreakable silence between us. With a strange question, she started speaking.

—“Do you like Pop Idols?” — She shy asked.

—“If I like them?” —I repeated the question with a smile in my face. —“Of course I do! Don't you?”

—“What are your bias*?” —She asked to me, who was visibly excited.

—“Rose from Dandelion, she's my ultimate, what about you?” —I said without realizing a huge blush covered her whole face.

—“Well... I don't have one...” —She said, covering her face. —“But if you're talking about Dandelion, Noelle is my bias” — She asked, hiding her face into her arms.

—“Is the first time you meet an Anemo*?” — I asked, trying to have her a hint.

—“Yes, I haven't seen any of them, but I hope more fans of them are getting into the fandom after their comeback” —She answered.

It was difficult to talk about something that had already taken me so long to forget. And that's how we spent half an hour talking about the Dandelion girls and our musical tastes. I did not know that an idol could have so many tastes, I have learned something new.

We had so many things in common, and my desire to be friends with her was affected by the fact that I can't reveal her secret and I can't approach her as a fan either. What if I turn into an Idol? Could it be that she wants to be my friend like that?

And the time to say goodbye had come. And after so long, I felt like there was a little connection between us. And it was an impossible dream, but that little addiction had returned. And before I thought it was wrong to follow them, and admire them and be their fan, but even she wishes that there are more fans like me. An idol told me that I'm an exemplary fan. I was flattered.

and she retired, put on hee mask and walked out up the street, on the way to MDE*. A strange feeling invaded me, because I felt that as soon as she left that girl I was in danger. I felt like that day, where that girl was praying for her life, alone, in danger. so in order not to feel that way, I decided to watch where she was going while she was on the street.

I was never wrong, I had never made a mistake. I knew that I needed to take care of her. I wasn't wrong, because coming out of an alley, a hooded person had come out and walked exactly where she was going.