My husband

I'M PREGNANT

    "Nicholas?" Racheal asked

     He heard the worry in her voice but it still took a couple of second for the ringing in his ear to subside and for him to tune into reality

    "Did you hear what I said?" She asked tentatively

     Slowly he dropped the knife he had been using to cut into the steak he has been thoroughly enjoying, what was left of it in his mouth felt and tasted like dust

    "I think I did, but I don't quite believe I heard you correctly" he answered knocking back his wine

     From the corner of his eyes Nicholas saw his wife shifting uncomfortably in her chair, it was obvious she too could feel the rapidly rising tension

    "I said I'm pregnant"

    Nicholas didn't know why, but laughter bubbled up from him stomach, harsh and humorless

    The disbelief he saw on Racheals' face proved that that was not the reaction she was expecting

    "Is this some sort of joke?" Nicholas asked his heart beginning to pound, he could swear he could feel and hear the blood rushing through his body

    "Why would I joke about that?, it.... I missed my period okay?...the last two months and I..."

      "A couple of missed period and you just assume you're pregnant?... what's the mean...."

     " Would you let me finish" Racheal snapped, she knew she wasn't going to get an happy or eager response from him, he had explicitly told her on the island that he didn't want children anytime in the next couple of years.... but this?... sighing she continued when he cocked a brow.

    "I was in the bakery this afternoon.... in the kitchen, I felt faint, I thought it was just the heat...um, but then I passed out...."

    "What?... why am I just hearing of this?" Nicholas shouted throwing his napkin on the table and standing to pace by the window

     "I told everyone not to say anything about it...." ignoring the dirty look he threw her over his shoulder, she continued, "I went and saw Doctor Linda. She uhhh, she ran some tests and the result showed that I'm two months pregnant"

     All the while she talked Nicholas kept pacing, he stopped by the window and stared out of it silently

    Racheal tried so hard not to count along with the clock as it ticked the second minute

      "Are you going to say anything?" She asked standing from the chair, starting towards him "I know we didn't have plans to have a child so soon... I know you said you didn't want one now... but it's happene...."

    Suddenly, Nicholas turned around and leveled steely accusing eyes on her freezing her dead in her track

     "Whose is it Racheal?" He asked, his voice deadly calm

      "What?!" Racheal asked in disbelief, in shock, her voice came out small

    "Don't fucking play with me!, who the fuck have you been sleeping with?!!!, because that baby is sure as hell not mine!"

   Racheal staggered backwards, the blood draining from her face, suddenly feeling like she had run nonstop for hours, she sagged against the table. "What are you saying?" She asked still hoping she wasn't hearing right

    "Is it that stupid managers'?, did you go back to him?, spread your legs and now try to pass the baby off as mine?"

    A sob escaped Racheals' lips and she clutched at her chest, feeling as though her heart was being ripped out. He wouldn't be so cruel!, he wouldn't be so cruel as to say these things!, her heart kept echoing in denial

   "Answer me damn it!, because I never had sex with you without a fucking condom!... I knew you'd go and do shit like this!, you all are the same!.... what does he have that I don't? Huhn?..."

    "Nicholas please just stop all these... I know you're trying to process this but we'd get through it together!"

    "Together?" He asked advancing on her, he got in her face and laughed right in it "How about you go to its father..." another cruel laugh " that is if you even know who it is, and tell him you plan on doing this together because I sure as hell don't want to have anything to do with it!"

      The first hot trail of tears that Racheal had been trying so hard to hold back rolled down her cheeks

    "I'd never cheat on you!, I never did!.... I'm not Vivian....." she sobbed

     "Fuck you!" He shouted pushing away from the table "Fuck you for bringing her into this!"

    "And why wouldn't I?" Racheal shouted angrily through the tears "She's the reason why you've been so cruel to me, she's the reason why you're this way!"

    "Leave her out of this, okay?. Take that baby and get the hell away from me!, it's not mine and you can't make me believe otherwise, I always checked and the condoms never broke!" Nicholas shouted

    "We didn't use one in your office...." Racheal shouted back standing too quickly and swaying dangerously

    Nicholas just looked at her in disgust

   "It was one time!, and I didn't finish in you!, I didn't fucking cum in you Racheal!, I pulled out and I cleaned you up myself so don't even bring that up!"

    "I guess you're not that good at everything then" Racheal retorted shoving at his chest repeatedly.

    Grabbing her by her shoulders, Nicholas stopped her attack,

    "You had one job!, just one damn job!, damn it all to hell tell me who it is!, I'm going to kill him!, I swear to God i'd fucking kill him!!!"

    Racheal just stared into the face of the man that she had come to love more and more everyday as she came to know him, but she saw no trace of him there. This man looked exactly like the man that had come to her that night at the charity and nonchalantly announced their wedding. She found that she had nothing to say, for the first time, no sassy response came to mind, no quirky comeback was at the tip of her tongue. She felt the resignation spread through her body as surely as his fingers digging painfully into her skin

     "I love you" she whispered weakly, the tremble beginning from her lips and working it's way through her body

    Nicholas released her suddenly like he had been been stung. He stood there staring at her like she had just grown another head

   "Unbelievable!, this is fucking unbelievable" he laughed running both hands through his hair. He resumed his pacing, "I refused to accept your bastard" Racheal whimpered "and you try to use love to change my mind" he said spitting out the word love like it was a revolt.

     He stopped in front of her, his eyes cold and his voice even more so

     "You're nothing to me, that baby is nothing to me and your love means nothing to me either...." he scoffs "you don't love me!, this is all just a sick game to you!...."

    "Nicholas..."

    "I can't even stand you!, you fucking disgust me!" He spat, shouldering past her "I want you gone by the time I'm back" he said in parting

    Racheal heard the front door open and bang shut, she heard the sound of a car starting and driving off. Unconsciously, her palm settled on her stomach. She was on autopilot when she walked to the tray that held the car keys, opened and locked the door of the house entered her car and drove out of the gates.