Sociopath

Living

I did absolutely nothing for my last whole day as a human. I didnt go out, mainly because Damon wouldn't let me out- And Kai hadn't come over at all today to see me and I was deprived of him.

It's like I needed him to function and without him I was nothing.

I called him here and there and he wouldnt call me back.

But that was yesterday.

Today I should get my immortality back, along with my memories. I prayed I'd at least get my memories. But if Kol really was the one to compel me, then his compulsion should technically withstand the spell and carry through.

I just prayed that wasnt the case.

But if it was... I mean Kai could show me everything we've been through, right? Or would it confuse me more, that's very possible. My truth being twisted and turned into the actual truth.

My thoughts were my worst enemy in the morning, maybe I didnt want to remember, maybe I wanted to create nee memories with him if what Kols compulsion doesnt wear off when I turn.

Or maybe I wont turn back at all. Maybe my 520 some odd years will only get 60-80 more years to that number. Maybe I'll have to leave everyone behind, maybe I'll never be able to feel the high I felt with the Mikaelsons. I might not be able to be care free, or at least try to be care free, I do know I wasnt the person to take risks before.

I decided to climb out of bed around noon, my body didn't feel the same yet. That rush of hearing, and seeing, and smelling, and even feeling things differently hasnt come back yet.

That rich feeling of being a vampire was still stripped of my body, I had until the end of the day today to not worry. If in the morning I wake up feeling the exact same, then we will worry. But today was just a waiting game to see if I would change.

As I stumbled down the stairs rubbing my eyes, Kai ran up to me and hugged me. I pulled away and glared at him with betrayal.

"I'll be there before you wake, huh?! What kind of bull shit is that! I waited for you all damn day, for at least a call! You didnt even text me back! That is complete bull shit and I'm done. Come back tomorrow and I'll tell you if I'm still upset." I yelled and passed him, crossing my arms. He grabbed my elbow and spun me around and into him.

"Nerezza, Angel. I didnt see you yesterday because I was dealing with the Mikaelsons. Coming to see you would not only encourage them coming after you, it'd put you in danger. I'm trying to keep you safe so... please, allow me to apologize for not being able to attend to you." He spoke genuinely, I nodded and turned around to walk away from him again, be he grabbed me.

"I accepted your apology, what else do you want." I asked harshly.

"Why are you still upset?"

"Is it illegal to be upset all of the sudden?!" I asked with the same tone I used earlier. Then Damon walked in.

"Is someone bleeding?" He asked inhaling, looking over at me, the only person who was capable of bleeding and smelling. "You need blood?" He asked, offering me his wrist. "I dont see any cuts, odd."

I looked over at Kai, who was smiling. Caroline overheard and came into the room.

This was embarrassing.

I havent had to deal with this for 520 years, and now everyone knew before I even did.

Were cramps not a thing anymore?!

I looked over at Caroline and she nodded. "I'll be right back." She said dismissing herself, knowing what was up with me.

About a half hour later, after I had locked myself inside me room so I could hide, Caroline came in. She placed the supplies I would need on the counter in my bathroom, then paused to look at me.