hi.
don't read this book, it's terrible. not only is the smut and plot terrible and messy, but my character is a pick me misogynist. i used words that may have been offensive because i didn't know any better. i didn't know alternate words, and i didn't know how to fucking write.
i wrote this when i was 13-14?? it was my first book. i'm 18 now, i've written other books over the years and have learned so much. these dolan twin books were 1-5 hours long, but the books i write now are so much more, only proving how much i've improved. i'm talking, 17-21 hours. that's a lot. almost on average, 3000-7000 words per chapter. these books had 1000 words at minimum...
i was in middle school when i wrote this. i started it with absolutely no plot, i just winged it. don't even know why there's so much attention on it—not that i'm not thankful for it, because it's helped me build a following and has given me readers who i appreciate so fucking much.
but sometimes i can't help but wish i never wrote best friends. it taints my persona, because i don't write like how i used to. i don't use offensive slurs in dialogue, i give characters development, i plan out my stories, and i definitely write better smut now lol.
but i'm not going to rewrite best friends, because i can't bare to look at it. maybe you guys like it, but i absolutely do not. i love my other books (lemonade being one of them) but best friends along with together is just... not it for me.
just know, if you choose to read this book, there are some annoyingly cringy shit that happens. i was 13 and delusional. i was a little kid who didn't know any better. and i was a terrible fucking writer.
i truly apologize if i've offended anybody. i know the severity of words now, but i didn't back then. i don't keep up with comments on this book, so i had no clue because i completely blocked this book out of my memories.
again, i'm sorry. it was never my intention. i've grown, i've seen shit, i've learned. i'm no longer that naive 13 year old girl.
while you're ignoring this book, please do check out my other ones. and if you're a BTS fan, i write ff's about them too! they're much better than my dolan twin ones lol.
goodbye.
with all love,
j.
written on may 18, 2021
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