bestfriends | ethan

ten

The car door opens making me scream as I just almost fell down from leaning against the door.

"What are you guys doing?" Aaron asks us-- or me, seeing as Ethan was still sleeping in the drivers seat of the car.

Oh, we fell asleep in the car. Just great. I'm not sure how long we stayed up, but I know we stayed up long enough.

I rub my eyes, and glance up at Aaron who still wants an answer, "We fell asleep in the car. What does it look like?" Aaron snickers, "But, why though."

"We... were talking," I yawn. "What time is it?" I ask him. "It's 10am, get your asses up. Grayson made breakfast." He leaves the passenger door open, and jogs back over to the door of the cabin.

I shake Ethan in attempt to wake him. "Ethan," I whisper. "Ethan," I say louder. Nothing.

I slap his face hard, "I'm up, I'm up!" He rubs his eyes as he asks, "What time is it?"

"10am. Now let's go. Gray made breakfast." He nods, and opens the door, just as I open mine. We walk back to the house, and I open the door.

"Good morning, sleepy heads! Sleep well?" Lexi says to us as we entered the door. She's dressed in a large t-shirt that looks like it belongs to Grayson and maybe some shorts, but I'm not too sure.

"My neck hurts," Ethan says, rubbing his hand over the back of his neck.

"What made it a good idea to sleep in the car? We're the beds not good enough?" Grayson says, laughing. I sit down on the high chairs, "Ethan likes talking in the car." I mumble, taking a sip of the coffee that Lexi placed in front of me.

Ethan sighs, taking a seat next to me and propping his elbows onto the table in front of him.

I hear faint footsteps come into the room and when I look, I immediately sense Ethan get tense.

"Good morning, baby." Lacey whispers to Ethan, hugging him from behind. I try not to roll my eyes at her presence. I try so hard. (And got so far, but in the end, it doesn't even matter! OMG KMS)

"Morning," Ethan mumbles, fixing up his hair a bit. "I'm gonna shower." Ethan says, excusing himself from Lacey's grasp.

She furrows her eyebrows, before taking the seat he was sitting on, and trying to start a conversation with me.

"Why does Ethan seem so pissy?" She asks me. Loud enough for Grayson and Lexi to overhear.

I sigh, "I'm gonna go to the lake." I slide off the high chair, slipping on some random shoes and opening the front door. Honestly, I needed some air. I'm that person who can keep a secret, but wanna tell someone so bad. And if Lacey kept talking to me, it might've slipped out, and I can't have that happening.

Sure I want her to know, but not by me.

I sit down on the cold, dirty ground and stare at the water.

Ever since last night, when we really opened up about ourselves, I felt myself, maybe, I think, just a little, falling in love with Ethan. Maybe that's why I suddenly hate Lacey more than I need to. I don't know what love feels like, and to be honest, I'm kind of scared to know. I've had my heart broken once. When my mother died, you know. But in a way, Ethan kind of fixed it.

He always made sure I was happy, and when I was bored, he'd sometimes take from his own time to spend it with me. I know he cares about me, I do. And I care about him just as much. Or maybe more..

I know that during the past week, we fought a bit, but doesn't every best friend fight? At least once. We always end up being close again anyway.

I've said this a lot, but Ethan truly is the best thing that has ever happened to me. When I didn't like him, he was like a brother to me. He cared, and loved me like a sister. I'm so thankful for him. It's all because of him that I'm no longer insecure. That I'm comfortable with my body.

When we were 12 or 13, I was really sad. I wouldn't say depressed, because I wasn't depressed, and I don't like taking that for granted. When I'd lay in my bed all day, staring at the windows of my bedroom, Ethan would buy me things or try and take me places to make me happy.

Sometimes he'd even get in the covers with me, and just lay with me, because he knew that's what I liked. He just knew.

Everyday, he'd be the highlight of my day. So, it was pretty obvious to myself, when I ask "Am I in love with my best friend, Ethan Dolan?" Because I already know the answer.

And it's yes.

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"Everyone have everything?" Lacey claps her hands, getting everyone's attention. Everyone mumbles a 'yeah' or 'yup', and we all file into the car ready to leave this place.

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You could see how upset Ethan was. How he just needed someone. So that's where I'm at. After we left that place, Cameron dropped me off here. At Ethan's house.

When we got here, Ethan raced up into his room, and I haven't gone up there yet because Grayson keeps asking me questions.

"Is he alright?" He asks.

"When he's ready to tell you, he'll tell you, okay?" He nods, and I start walking up the stairs making my way to his room.

I knock lightly on the door, "Ethan?" I hear nothing for a while before hearing a muffled: "Carter?"

I open the door a little seeing Ethan lying on his bed facing the wall. I walk into the room, and close the door. I slowly make my way to the bed, and I feel it dip due to my knee.

I turn Ethan around, taking a look at his sad eyes. He closes them, taking a deep shaky breath, as if he's trying to calm himself down.

"Lay with me, please."

I nod, laying myself down next to him. He hugs my body, pulling me closer to him. I wrap one arm around his torso loosely but he adjust my arm, so I'm hugging him tightly instead, making me smile.

He lets out a deep sigh, "I'm glad to have a friend like you, Carter."

Haha, friendzoned! You loser.

"Mmhm," I hum.

I find myself getting more tired just by laying in this position. My eyes get heavy, and just as I was about to full on sleep, I swear I heard a faint, "I love you,"

But... I could just be dreaming.

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END OF CHAPTER 10

Lol funny story but I actually don't even have a plot for this story. I'm kinda just winging it. But hopefully I'm good at winging it?

I was in Spanish class when Ethan started tweeting like a crazy man, and I couldn't help but laugh a bit haha. Hopefully no one noticed cause the smile was on my face until math class.

Todays Dec 10 which means it's Sean's birthday! Happy birthday Sean 💚 we love ya.

Im so exited for Tuesday cause I can't fricking wait to see drugged Ethan! This weeks video is gonna be so funny haha!

Until next chapter, cya!