Ara..
“Christian!” I shouted as I get off my car.
He’s walking alone so maybe this is the chance that I have been waiting for. He stop but then continued to walk away from me.
It hurts. Didn’t he know that?
I run after him and grabbed his hand. “Christian..” I said panting.
He looked at me with no trace of fondness for me. He just stared at me blankly. It’s hurting me. We’re back at zero again.
“May problema ba tayo?” I ask trying to hide the pain. Trying to stop my eyes in the verge of crying. Trying to stop my heart as it beats so fast just for him. Trying not to shout and slap his face from ignoring me.
Trying to convince myself that there’s no problem. That we’re ok.
“We’re fine.” He said flatly.
Fine? Is he kidding me?! “Why are you avoiding me?” because it damn hurts Christian! It damn hurts!
“I’m not.” He denied.
And in the end, I can’t stop from feeling the pain. I’m getting tired from all of this.
“You’re not?” I said making him feel my pain. “Hindi ka umuuwi ng bahay. You left me. You left me hanging but still I’m waiting. I’m waiting because I love you Christian, I love you that its hurting me.” I confessed the pain I felt.
But he didn’t even flinch. It slaps me hard.
“1 month. I waited.” My tears slowly run down to my cheeks from my eyes. “if you’re too bored at me, please atleast tell me. If I bored you I’m sorry. If I didn’t satisfy you I’m sorry.” I brushed my tears away.
I looked into his eyes. Nanginginig ako. “If I’m not.. If I’m not the right girl that deserves your love.. I’m really sorry.”
“Ara.” Finally he spoked again. He spoke my name again!
Lumapit ako sakanya. Yumakap ako at tumingala upang pagmasdan ang magagandang mata niya. “I love you Christian..” I said and gave him a peck on his lips. He was shocked.
Ngumiti ako sakanya ng matamis na palagi kong ibinibigay sakanya. “This is goodbye Christian. I’m giving you your freedom.”
And I walk away from the man I love. I walk away from the unbearable pain. Maybe I just get tired because everything is too much.
