My name is Jas,I am 18 years old.My parents died when I was 3 and all my life I have been suffering from depression.I have no friends and get treated like a door mat which is why I dropped out of school when I was 7. I never feel safe anywhere else from home so I never leave the house. I live in my own little house,I like to be independent. To be honest I don't know why people like me, am I fat? Am I ugly? I continuously ask myself everyday, why? Why me? WHY!? What have I ever done to them? Why is it that everyone just has to hate me? I cry myself to sleep every night and have nightmares about them horrible people. I promise myself NEVER to leave the house ever again.
When I was 14 it was the worst,I started to cut..nobody found out seen as no one bothered to care. About a month after I stopped,I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like killing myself,I obviously wasn't worth it. Also I once starved myself because I thought people didn't like me because of my weight, I lived on bread and water for 2 months so currently I am underweight,all my bones stick out. There's no food in the house because I never go out,I couldn't care less about food. I hate eating,it makes you fat.
I don't socialise from online or anything,I don't even have a phone.i don't want one anyway they're useless,not like I actually want to talk to anyone.. I have no other family except from my grandma who lives in Canada,I barely ever speak to her. I wish there was someone out there who understands me and would be my friend. I don't want a boyfriend, boys are pathetic little assholes. I just want a friend. Is that too much to ask for? Just one simple thing?
Sorry for the short chapter guys,will update soon. Love u all xxx - Tazzy
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