Could you love me?

Part 4

Lizzie let's her fingers continue to run through y/n hair as she watches Hercules. After a few minutes Lizzie notices y/n relaxing having fallen asleep. Lizzie uses the opportunity to gather her thoughts.

Okay, Lizzie thought. Y/n is a little. Lizzie racks her brain for information. Yes she's heard of littles before but didn't know any personally or even interacted with one. Lizzie quickly pulls out her phone trying to find any and all information she can.

Lizzie quickly reads that littles often 'drop', as they call it, when they are sick or stressed. Makes sense, Lizzie thinks to herself. She continues reading how some littles need to drop fairly regularly to maintain a healthy balance. While others prefer to be in their little headspace compared to their normal one.

Lizzie keeps digging deeper on the topic, reading about how littles often are in different headspace ranges. Lizzie looks down at y/n who is sleeping soundly with the pacifier still bobbing in her mouth. "You're definitely a young one." Lizzie says brushing her fingers through her hair.

Most younger littles need a caregiver to safely drop. Lizzie notes that y/n doesn't seem to have one, which makes dropping harder for y/n.

Lizzie decides that once y/n is back in her normal headspace again she will ask y/n about it more. But for now Lizzie wants to step into that role for y/n.

After a few dozen articles and some blogs Lizzie hears y/n stomach start to grumble a bit. Lizzie looks at the time and realizes it's already 3, they had missed lunch.

Lizzie brings her hand down, noticing y/n is still burning up.

"Sweetheart, can you wake up for me? We gotta get some food in you so you can get better." Lizzie says watching y/n eyes flutter a bit.

Y/n whines a bit, not wanting to move.

"I know, but after you eat we can watch another movie." Lizzie says, hoping to motivate her a bit.

Y/n eyes peak open looking up at Lizzie. "There is my babygirl." Lizzie says smiling down at y/n.

Y/n just sighs in response, cuddling into Lizzie more. Lizzie lifts y/n head off her lap and stands up. Before bringing her arms down to y/n.

"Come on, up you go." Lizzie says lifting y/n up and placing her on her hip. Lizzie can feel y/n is wearing some sort of diaper under her sweatpants but decides not to mention it.

Y/n is a bit surprised Lizzie picked her up at first but quickly tucks her head into Lizzies neck. Lizzie walks over to the kitchen setting y/n down on the counter next to the bag she brought in.

"Okay, I brought two different soups." Lizzie says, looking in the bag before pulling them out. "Wild rice or chicken noodle?"

"Oodle" y/n says around her pacifier.

"Noodle it is." Lizzie says turning around getting a bowl for y/n. She quickly finds them and pours some soup into a bowl for y/n before pouring herself some wild rice.

"I have to warm them up a bit then we can eat." Lizzie explains, which y/n nods to. "Spoons." Lizzie says to herself, beginning to look through different drawers.

Lizzie notices y/n pointing to the drawer that's under her. "They are under my baby aren't they?" Lizzie says smiling, causing y/n to giggle.

Lizzie opens it grabbing two spoons before getting the soups. She carries them over to the table before coming back to grab y/n.

"Alright, let's go eat." Lizzie says walking to the table. Lizzie sits down keeping y/n on her lap.

"Do you got it or do you want some help?" Lizzie asks looking at y/n.

"Help p'ease" y/n says.

"Alright first we gotta take this out." Lizzie says, pulling the pacifier out of y/n mouth. Lizzie gets a spoonful of soup for y/n. She stops to blow on it to make sure it isn't too hot before bringing it to y/n lips.

The pair continue to eat like this, with Lizzie sneaking bites of her own between. After y/n eats about half the bowl Lizzie can tell she is full. Lizzie tried to offer y/n another bite but she just pulls her head away shaking it.

"Alright, let's go get you set up with another movie while I clean this up." Lizzie says, carrying y/n back over to the couch.

Lizzie sets y/n back down on the couch, keeping the blankets off her to try to help her cool down. Lizzie scrolls through the movie options before y/n has her stop on lion king.

Lizzie quickly puts the movie on before retreating back to the kitchen to clean up. As Lizzie does she remembers back to when she saw y/n place the coloring books and a pacifier in a drawer. Lizzie decides to go over and open it seeing what other items y/n has for herself if she drops.

Lizzie slides it open noticing a few more pacifiers, coloring books, a few sippy cups and bottles. Lizzie takes a sippy cup out and fills it with water, she also grabs a washcloth running it under cold water to help cool y/n down.

Lizzie heads back over to y/n on the couch. She scoots y/n head up before sitting down, placing y/n head back down in her lap. Lizzie takes the washcloth and wipes y/n forehead. She notices y/n whimpers a bit at the cool cloth, still burning up.

Lizzie decides to try and relax, knowing she is probably in for a long night with a sick little. She closes her eyes, hoping to just take a quick power nap.

Lizzie walks up to her phone buzzing in her pocket. She looks up a bit confused, dazed from sleep. She looks down at her phone seeing it is already 9pm. Shit, so much for a power nap. Lizzie looks down seeing y/n still sleeping soundly in her lap, she breathes a sigh of relief before looking back at her phone.

Kathryn and Paul had been texting her to make sure she was okay. Lizzie decided to text a quick response to both letting them know she is okay before turning her attention back to y/n.

Lizzie quickly stands picking y/n up, noticing y/n diaper is full she decides to try to wake her up. "Sweetheart, I need you to wake up for me please." Lizzie says rubbing y/ns back.

"S'eep time?" y/n whispers.

"Almost sweetheart, we got to get you changed. You're um full" Lizzie says, unsure of what to say or do.

Y/n face turns red in embarrassment, she tries to hide in Lizzies neck.

"Hey, it's okay. Do you want some help?" Lizzie asks. Y/n just nods into Lizzies neck.

Lizzie carries y/n into the bathroom attached to her room. "Okay sweetheart, if I do something wrong you gotta let me know." Lizzie says setting y/n down on the toilet.

Lizzie starts to look around for another diaper. Y/n just points under the sink. Lizzie nods and opens it, grabbing one and some wipes setting them on the sink.

Lizzie grabs y/n off the toilet and lays her down on the ground. Looking up and y/n before continuing, y/n nods back yawning. Lizzie smiles at her, even sleepy she's adorable.

"Alright." Lizzie says, lowering y/n sweatpants. Lizzie makes quick work of the diaper and puts a new one on. Deciding to not put the sweatpants back on y/n knowing she needs to cool off still. Lizzie throws the diaper away before washing her hands and carrying y/n to bed. She lowers y/n into bed, tucking her in and placing the pacifier back into y/n mouth. Lizzie leans down and kisses y/n on the head.

"Mommy stay." Y/n says, yawning.

"Are you sure?" Lizzie asks, not wanting to overstep. Y/n sleepily nods, pulling Lizzie into bed with her.

Lizzie quickly undoes her jeans, opting to sleep in underwear and one of y/n t-shirts. She slowly climbs into bed, staying near the edge. After a second Lizzie heard y/n moving around a bit, searching for her. Finally y/n finds Lizzie and cuddles into her side, slipping her head into Lizzies neck.

"Goodnight sweetheart." Lizzie says, kissing her head again.

"Nite." y/n sleepily whispers around her pacifier.

Lizzie smiles to herself. She can do this, she can be y/n caregiver. She thinks to herself before succumbing to sleep.