To All the Boys I've Loved Before

Introduction

Endings can be tricky and sometimes messy.
I’ve always had a problem with closure.
I always want one in everything but I never really get the endings I want.
The script I have in mind never happens in real life.
Sometimes, the closure doesn’t exist and things end just like that.
You just have to settle with unresolved emotions, unsaid goodbyes.

I hate that word, unresolved.
I always want to unravel a mystery whether it’s something grand like the Bermuda triangle, every wonder of the world or something as simple as unresolved feelings with no closure that just hangs up in the air.
These are REAL LIFE characters,
characters that some girl writes about in her stupid poetry and journals.
At some point in life they have given me life lessons I treasured.
This may seem pointless, making poetry out of people
who may just be a passing sentence to my life chapters but, still.

So this is me, mustering up all my courage to put all of my life experiences for public scrutiny.
Imagine an aspiring artist having an exhibit full of paintings except with words.
You can always scroll past this but I just wanted to empty myself of these words
that have haunted me for the longest time.
Call it a romance or a quest, label me whatever you want. I’ll take it.

This also has been a “pre-wedding” bucket list of mine and with permission of course from Le fiancé.
He was the first one to read this and as unbelievable as it sounds, thank God we’re still engaged. Haha. He was pretty cool about it. Lucky me, huh?

I’m hoping the people in these letters get to read this
but it doesn’t matter if they don’t since I’m doing this for me.
Perhaps by making them into literature,
I can find my long sought out, glorified closure.

Also, to YOU, yes you, this is for YOU whichever you are in one of these letters.
Yes, I’ve written about you many, many times.
You are someone that has lived in my head rent free
and I also hope some part of you hasn’t forgotten me.
Thank you for the memories and I hope you read till the end.