Raven and Beast boy

Chapter 19

 Episode 65 (Beast boy)

"Why are you acting like this BB? I thought you were over her" says Cyborg as he sits in my room trying to cheer me up.

"It's not like that, I just... It feels like the timing is" I try to say looking at the ceiling. "She was a good friend and I'm not sure I was, it just felt like it was my chance to make it all right" I try to explain what is going on in my head, but it's not easy, there is so much going on.

"You were the best of the friends, and you still are" says Starfire as she enters my room and comes to sit next to me. "maybe she likes more the life she has now"

"Actually, I'm glad she's happy I just don't know... I feel weird at the same time" I explain to them.

"Are you sure that the bad feeling is because of Terra?" he asks.

"What do you mean?" I ask because I don't really get it.

"Maybe the reason you are feeling bad is because of Raven" he explains, and I don't even know how to react it just feels like someone gut punched me, I know they've noticed but I didn't expect to have to talk about it. I thought that coming home would be different, but the reality is that it's just more obvious that we are not together anymore, as together as we were. It's hard to stay in my room and remember the time she just flew through the window and kissed me, or the times she would let me sleep in her room. It's just more... real. Before we came back it didn't feel like it, but now it does. Before coming home, I thought she would change her mind once the big threat is gone. Maybe Raven is the reason I'm feeling so bad.

"Still, it doesn't make sense why would Terra come back now does it mean anything?" I ask trying to avoid talking about Raven.

"It's not now BB, we haven't been to the statue in months who knows how much time ago she broke free" says Cyborg. "She has a good normal life now, and now you can stop feeling remorse. I think what you should really be doing is talk to Raven, not obsessing over this"

"Look, I tried, so many times, she's made up her mind, and I should just get used to it" I say and turn around to burry my face in my pillow.

"I do not believe that. I think she misses you" says Starfire to try and cheer me up.

"Yeah sure, I bet she misses my jokes too" I say ironically with my face still buried in the pillow.

"No, really, the other day we were painting the toenails when you passed by and she looked sad" she says trying to hug me.

"Okay, so maybe, and that's a big maybe, she misses me too, why doesn't she just talk with me" I say exasperated.

"Yeah, no, because she's so good at talking with people" says Cyborg ironically.

"Then what should I do?" I ask since all this talking is going nowhere.

"Can't you do the talking" asks Starfire.

"No, I always have to be the one swallowing the pride and talking to her, I'm sick of that if she really misses me, she should be the one to try and talk things out she is the one that broke up with me" I say pissed.

"Perhaps she thinks you don't want to talk to her" says Starfire trying to calm me down.

"Oh! Come on, there is no way she thinks that. I'm always trying to talk to her and do stuff with her. You know what? That is exactly the problem, that I show her I'm too much into her, from now one I'm going to be cool, maybe try and meet some cool chicks, play it casual, and if she really wants me back, she'll have to be the one that comes to me" I say proud of my new strategy. Of course, how could I not have thought about this before.

"Yeah, BB I don't think that's a very good idea" says Cyborg hesitating.

"Yeah, it may be the worst" says Starfire

"It's not. Think about the guys she likes, it's perfect" I say excited.

"Aren't you worried you will overdo it?" asks Cyborg.

"No, I have the perfect plan, I will be your goofy adorable boy but at the same time I won't give her any special attention, just a little bit sometimes so she knows what she misses" I explain to them.

"Yeah, this is not going to end well" says Cyborg just as the alarm goes off to let us know that there is trouble in the city.

"Time to start my plan" I say as we all get ready for the mission.