Raven and Beast boy

Chapter 20

Trouble in Tokio (Raven)

It's our last day in Tokyo and everyone is a little bummed out about it, but I'm not. Not really. Sure, I have a good time, but I miss my room, and the tower, and... I cannot take another minute of Beast Boy flirting with every girl he encounters. I know it shouldn't bother me, but I guess things are not that easy, I still have feelings for him, and I think he knows. I hoped that getting away from him would make things so much easier, that would bring everything back to normal, but nothing is, he is hurt and I'm to blame, so he tries to avoid me a lot, except sometimes when he would just act like before for a brief moment just to remind me of how much I do miss him. I don't think he would do that on purpose though, would he?

Finally, Robin and Starfire are together for real, so we don't have to pretend we don't see their moments every now and then, which is way better, but that also means that they spend even more time together, leaving me with Cyborg and Beast Boy. That normally is great but then again, not now. Would things ever go back to normal? Lately I've been asking myself that question a lot because I'm not even sure if I want us to be just friends again, I'm getting confused and that is not something that happens to me normally.

I'm packing all my stuff when Starfire knocks on my hotel room.

"Come in," I say as I still pack everything.

"how are you, friend Raven?" she asks as she gets inside and closes the door.

"I'm fine, glad we are going home."

"I wish we could stay longer, Tokyo is fun," she says while sitting on my bed.

"Yeah, I guess it's all right," I say to please her.

"Maybe you did not like it here because of Beast Boy."

"Why would you think that?" I ask annoyed.

"You just seem more of the angry than usual when you speak to him."

"He is just being more annoying than usual, that's all," I explain to her although I hate to feel obligated to explain everything I do.

"I am not supposed to tell you this." She starts to shift uncomfortable as it seems that she is deciding if she can tell me or not what she intended. "Beast Boy is just trying to make you feel the jealousy, I did not think it would work as he planned but maybe it is working because you like him too."

"I kind of figured he was trying that, but things are not that easy, I lost control because I cared too much. I can't let that happen again," I say as I sit on my bed next to her.

"But don't you care about all of us?"

"Well, I do."

"Then how can you know that it will not happen again?" she asks. I never thought about it, love is love, no matter what, and I guess I never even questioned my love for what it feels like my family, it was just given that I needed to be more careful. I guess I should have thought about that a long time ago.

"You know, you can be so wise sometimes," I say, and she just hugs me. "I should go and talk to him, if he doesn't already have like three girlfriends"

I'm dragging this too much I should just go to his room and say what I have to say instead of just overthinking it in my room, but what if he's already over me, what if he's the one to decide is not worth it this time. I hate this. I can already feel my stomach weird. Okay I'm just going to do this; worst comes to worst he's just going to think we are even. I hope.

It takes me a lot of time to get to his room although we stay on the same floor. When I'm at the door for a moment I think that I should just go to my room and forget about it, maybe I didn't give it enough time to process and that's the reason I'm not over him. No, that's not true, I don't want to be over him, I like him a lot, and for once I think I deserve to be with whom I like. I knock on the door fast before I can give myself any chance to chicken out.

"Who's there?" he asks from behind the door.

"Am... It's Raven"

I expect him to say something so I could come in but instead he just opens the door.

"Well, hello, how may I assist you today?" he says with a smirk.

"Can we talk?" I say in a more serious tone than his. He just moves and makes me a sign to go into his room, so I do.

"So, everything alright?" he asks after closing the door.

"Not really, I, I think that I was wrong" I try to say although I can't get myself to talk fluently. I should at least think about what I was going to say beforehand.

"You were wrong about what?" he asks as he sits on a chair next to the bed.

"Wrong when I told you this was for the best, I thought it was the only way to get away from distractions but, I always cared about you, it only changed the way to show it and I could stay in control before, I think I should be able to do so now. I think I freaked out because I've never been so involved with someone before and it's new, so it gets a little scary for me. I'm sorry if I hurt you in the process," I say and I sit on the bed so I can face him. I'm rubbing my hands together, I'm so nervous, his body kept shifting in that chair as I was talking, and I don't really know what is going on in his head and I'm so agitated I can barely sense him.

"I'm not gonna lie, it wasn't easy Raven, but I never expected easy from you, you know," he says and comes in front of me and takes my hands, "so what are you saying is that you might want to get back the BB love," he adds jokingly, I hope.

"What I'm saying, Gar, is that I'm sorry and that if you are good with it, I would like to go back to how everything was before, that day."

Instead of an answer he just looks into my eyes, making me blush a little. Does this mean we are good or not, that I guess could be an answer but not a very clear one. As I'm freaking out in my head, he gets closer to me. When he is so close, I can feel his warmth, he just smiles and kisses me, making me realize how much I've missed him. 

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A/N Hiii! So, we have just another chapter more to end this fan fic. It will be up on Sunday. I hope you enjoyed it so far.