THE RIGHT CHOICE

Learning

It has been three weeks since our engagement been announced in both Kingdoms and the new was taken quite surprisely pleased by both Kingdoms.  we have appeared in numerous events as couples and even kissed in multiple of them , it still feels like am kissing one of my brothers but I thank God Noel is so understanding.  His planning on taking me out today and he promises this surprise will knock me dead can't wait to see what he has planned out and am so happy Michelle offered to help me get dressed,  we've become pretty close and am getting to learn my Sister is not just plain Barbie. At exactly 7pm Noel had arrived,  have come to realise his very punctual unlike me , Noel has managed to win my family over , my siblings are obsessed with him , I can't blame them... he does have away with people , I find myself being envious of him. Walking down the staircase it felt like a movie with everyone left speechless,  I did look amazing Michelle did an amazing work , I could barely recognize myself in the mirror.

When I saw her walking down, my heart literally skipped a beat she is so beautiful,  today am planning to introduce her to my other life with hopes that I won't freak her out , she smiles at everyone and walks  to me giving me this big smile. Am ready for the drop dead surprise,  Ooh you have no idea what's in store for you , once  I said that I could sense some tension in her . After saying our goodbyes we were gone decided to blindfold her the entire ride , she kept asking a bunch of questions like I should at least give her a clue as to where we were going , she clearly isn't good at surprises . We are almost there K , I promise am not planning to ship you to some other continent or something,  have grown fun in calling her K it just fits. 

After parking the car I rushed to help her out of the car , I guided her to the door,  as I rung the bell I busied myself with unfolding her blindfold. She searches her surrounding then looks at me with confused eyes . Wait for it , as soon as I finished the statement the door flys wide opened,  Suddenly a kid come jumping on him , one could tell he was excited to see Noel, Dad, I missed you . He was right , I almost dropped dead , Noel has a kid , What the hell is going on here , No one saw it fit to share something as important as this with me .Then a woman shows up holding a little girl in her arms , God she must be the mother, but wait isn't she a little bit older than him,  than us , I come back to reality to find the girl also hugging Noel and also calling him Dad .Before I could express what I was feeling the kids were pulling him inside ,Hepulles  me in with him ,Still standing there like a statue but I was surprised with the various kids in the house who by the sight of him comes jumping up and down to him , I definitely could tell he means alot to them and they mean the world to him ,that could be told with how he hugged them , the smile ooh and laughter I have never seen him this happy , Never. When they notice me they all came to a halt , ' Who is she Daddy ? one beautiful girl asks , Noel gazes at me giving me this beautiful smile then looks back at them . She is ,My Wife to be , Most of them come hugging me and giving me lots and lots of kisses except one particular girl who seemed pissed off , She was a little older than the rest . Noel left me with the rest and went after her. Luna , Luna , sweetheart wait up , she goes and sits on her bed crying her eyes out , I take a sit next to her , I try reaching for her hands but she pushes  me away .Am sorry Love , am so sorry , I know I hurt you , all of you , yes I was hurt but I should have remembered you guys were hurt too ...Like a fool I am most of the time, I added to your sorrows,  Please forgive Daddy for being selfish . She hugs  me so lovingly and I literally felt some burden being lifted from my shoulder . I love you more than anything in this world , said that wiping tears from her eyes . Love you more Daddy. I get to introduce my kids to Kelly and to no surprise they get along pretty great.

Noel seemed to have disappeared after dinner , the kids and I help Anna with cleaning of the dishes and after giving the kids their goodnight kisses and the multiple promise to visit again they were off to bed . Luna come up to me apologysing for acting so rudely earlier on.  It's okay Sweetie, I was a stranger and I too don't do well with strangers but I hope we become good friends in the long run ? I would love that too , she smiles at me , Can I ask you for a favour? She asks. Anything Sweetie.  Don't hurt him , I know he may seem strong but his not . With a kiss she was gone  . She's a tough one, Anna commented,  She gets it from her Dad . Speaking of him do you happen to know where I can find him ? He went to see her , she said it so casually like I knew who 'Her' was . Who's 'Her'? She softens her eyes , Don't worry his not cheating on you , Well that was the last thing on my mind but it was nice to know , It's one of his kids ,she is buried a few kilometres from here . Do you mind showing me the way and with that she leds me to him .At his sight I asked Anna to go back , I walk  to him and standing at a distance he barely knew I was there . I miss you so much Noelle , Sorry I wasn't there when you needed me the most , He was crying now and that hurt me , I have never seen Noel breaking down it's like he always has everything  figured out. I always knew he was hurting but I had no idea he was hurting this bad .

God am so stupid,  can't believe I left you even though I knew you needed me most . What kind of a father does that ? A great Dad , he was shocked at my sight,  but he just stands and hugs me tightly like I was the last strand he was holding on to stay in this earth . You are an amazing Dad , Noel ... you have brought up polite and responsible kids  you should be proud . We take a sit and I can  tell he doesn't believe his an amazing Dad , He gets to share a little bit of his pain with me . Noelle had Blood Cancer,  we come to know in her last stages that leaving us with less power to fight it back but still I had hope ,God i believed she could get better,  i started fulfilling all her wishes  hoping  maybe that will give her a will to live , So i decided to propose to my girlfriend who i loved with every heartbeat and she also wanted a mom so it was like killing two birds with one stone .Who better than Julia to be and beside they all loved her , So i bought a Rubby Red Ring with that he laughed,  I knew he was laughing at himself , the laugh was so bitter, i actually felt it. Decided to surprise her to my surprise I ended being the one surprised.  I could see it hurt him just thinking about it , I needed him to speak it out and maybe it may help ease it. I mostly wanted him to let me in , I embraced his strong hands to argue him to continue he stares at our intertwined hands and holds  mine tightly. I found her in bed with another man , with that tears spilled from his eyes and mine too ,Not just any other man but my brother,  he said it like he still doesn't believe it . The two people  I trusted the most , I was shuttered,  I couldn't do anything,  couldn't find my voice,  I just knew I was furious at both and then my voice miraculously turned up.  I told them I wished they would both  drop dead , that this world would be a better place without the two of them in it and with that I was gone , forgot someone needed me more . They tried to call me but like the fool I was I had broken my phone due to the various calls from my brother.  I come back to find her dead and her last words were my name, I think I cried more than him , I still can't believe his gone through that and still smiles .

Everything in me kept saying it was my fault , I couldn't say goodbye,  I couldn't even look at her ,she got buried and still I couldn't attend it because that's how much that  guilt was eating me up . With that he smiles  at me , I thought I was hurt I absolutely know nothing about pain . Nothing at all . After her burial went home got in my room to find another shock of my life , My brother,  had... hunged himself in my room , I completely lost it , I broke down and that was completely my fault I killed him , I ...didn't mean what I said , I didn't want him dead , I was hurt and I said hurtful things but I didn't,  Noel cried his eyes out .I know , I know said that hugging him tightly.  Left me a note telling me I deserved a better brother than he could ever have been and that he was so, so , sorry for everything. We stayed silent for a moment then he breaks  it . Am okay now , I Feel a little bit better sharing it with someone , he looks  at me and gives me a forced smile . I need to be okay . No , Noel you don't need to. I need to K , for the kids , my parents, my younger brother , Larry  and for you , You also need me to be strong not breaking down like this . I just hugged him he was reluctant at first but he gave in . Thank you that's all I could say to him .

What would you have done if you were Noel ,Finding your brother with your girlfriend,  losing a child and worst of all finding your dead brother in your room ?