I felt myself slipping through the cracks of my shattered life, through the cracks I thought I had fixed. I stumbled to my room and crawled up to my bunk. I felt like I was suffocating, trying to breathe in rocks. My mind was swirling painfully and I was sobbing hysterically. I realized I was having a panic attack.
I hadn't had one in a while. I had been able to keep them at bay. But now I was breaking down, sobbing, suffocating, shaking. I was alone in the room, not that anyone could've helped me. When it finally subsided, I lay on my bed, feeling empty and useless.
I had failed at the one thing I had put any effort in. I curled up into a fetus position, my mind blank. Everything was silent, to the point that I could hear my own heart in my ears.
I reached under my pillow and got my music player and ear buds. I turned on Falling in the Black by Skillet, which described my current feelings perfectly.
CC walked into my room and hoisted himself until he sat next to me. He smiled uneasily. I faked a smile, like I had numerous times before.
"Hey, CC. What're you doing here?"
"Jinxx told me about Jimmy."
My heart sank. CC was one of the most lighthearted people I knew, and I wasn't sure how he could've taken my struggles.
He put a bony hand around me shoulders and squeezed. "Hey, you know you got us to help ya."
I shrugged. "You don't have to help me. I should be able to deal with my own mistakes."
"Well, you're stuck with us, and we're gonna help you. We're basically your family now. Jinxx is your daddy, and the rest of us are uncles or somethin."
I smiled up at him. CC could be really goofy sometimes, but occasional heart to hearts weren't out of place with him.
I checked my watch. 10:30. Was I really crying for almost 8 hours? Cc noticed this and frowned.
"You should eat something, then go to bed."
"I'm not hungry."
"Don't you go skipping meals on me. I'll let you do this once, but don't make it a habit."
"OK, uncle Chris."
He laughed, punched my shoulder, then left. With a sigh, I huddled under my blanket and waited for sleep to come.
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Singer's City (Original text)
FanfictionEpril moves across the country to stay in an NJ orphanage with her baby brother. But it turns out that the past she was running away from is still on her tail. Rewrite: https://www.wattpad.com/story/64455248-singer%27s-city-rewritten Sequel: Her Rev...