Survivors

18. Sorry

CW/TW: swearing, yelling

Tommy POV:

I followed Wilbur into a room at the very end of a hallway. He shut the door and started to question me.

"Where have you been for three years Tommy? You worried all of us. You're not you left was concerning. I cried for you Tommy! I did! I thought you were going to die. I thought that you were just going to leave and we would hear the news of your death through a stranger." Wilbur shouted, holding onto a bookshelf for stability.

"Wilbur I'm sorry. I didn't feel welcome. I never felt welcome. All Phil ever cared about was Techno. It was always about Techno to him. For fucks sake Wilbur he cared more about Techno than you! And Phil adopted you first!" I shouted back.

"Tommy" he tried to interrupt me but I wouldn't have it.

"No, Will. You don't understand. No one cared about me in that house. Unless Mum was over, she cared but she had to leave so often because the stupid fucking government won't approve her visa or some shit! And you. You left me. You left me because you had a child. You could've taken me with you. But you left me on my own. I'm sorry that I turned out like both of my brothers. And I'm sorry that my wish came true. I wanted to be like you. I did, I really did."

I tried to hold back the tears that threatened to spill. But I couldn't. Tears trailed down my face as I sobbed, recalling bitter memories of being yelled at by Phil for not being good enough, or 'you should be more like Techno'. I hated that. I hated that so much.

"Tommy," Wilbur said giving me pitying look. "Don't look at me like that. You knew what was going on. You knew what you were doing. You all did. Phil hated me. And he finally got what he wanted. Did you know that one night I stupidly walked into his room looking for comfort after a night mare and he just told me to leave. He didn't care. He never did, Will. I was always left out. I was always being shunned and told off for things I couldn't even control. So I'm sorry that I left to live with someone who I knew wouldn't do that to me!" I yelled, sobbing even more.

My knees buckled and I was now sitting on the floor in tears like a child.

"I went and lived with Tubbo for three years. It was great. I was never yelled at, never told to leave and never come back, never shunned for my stupid actions. And it was all I ever wanted. Loving parents, people who cared about me and what I had so say. And maybe, just maybe, if I had been given even a quarter of respect or live that your or Techno got, I probably wouldn't have left. But I never got it, so I did." By throat felt terrible from sobbing and yelling at my brother at the same time.

I felt Wilbur wrap his arms around me and pull me into a hug. "I am so sorry Tommy. I am so sorry that you went through that. I didn't have an idea, I should've known. But I didn't and now I feel terrible" he said through his own sobs. "You get used to it." I replied, he let out a dry laugh.

"I really am sorry. I would've brought you with Fundy and I. But I was too distraught to even take care of him. I went to Niki for help with him. It was rough for all of us. And I know that you wouldn't have wanted to be in that type of situation." He said.

He pulled away from me and looked me in my eyes. "I feel like I should tell you this now but I got a message fromTechno and Phil saying that their coming to us. They're coming her Tommy." I went silent. It's not often I do so, I've been told that it's scary when I do, cause people don't really know what I'm going to do next.

"But something to counter that is Mum is here. She lived in the libraries attic. We have tea on Tuesdays Tommy. You should join us." He continued. I nodded and asked, "what day is it?"
"Sunday."
"When do yo think Techno and Phil with be her?"
"A few days, a week at max."

I nodded.

"I'm going to head back and sleep. Don't tell anyone I cried, don't want people thinking I'm weak." I laughed. "Then wash your face, it gives it away." Wilbur smirked. I laughed one more and left. It was nice seeing Wilbur after those three years.
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