Bittersweet Mate bond

mate bond 2

It's been 5 days, I haven't seen him for nearly five days. He come late at night after I sleep and go to his office early morning before I wake up.
I am also trying to avoid him as much as possible. I don't think I'm ready for that yet but I also don't think I will ever be ready after that incident.
But my wolf has been nagging me. She want to know him more and she is missing him. Well I can't say the same for me.
Our wolf are connected but our human part are not. So my wolf feel the mate bond more and that eventually makes me feel the same too. But after what happened last time we were together, I am scared of meeting him. But my wolf will not settle down until I met him so today I went to the pack house third floor where the alpha office is.

I knocked softly on the door. "Come in" Came a muffled voice.
I went inside and his scent hit me like a wave in the ocean. I looked and there he was sitting on the chair looking directly into my eyes.
His brown eyes were looking at me with so many emotions. We looked at each and then his eyes settle down at my neck where he gave me his mark. His eyes then moved downwards. I was wearing another cotton dress. Then he looked into my eyes and
raised a eyebrows as if asking me, what I want.This is the first time i have said his name out loud.

"Umm I want to go for a run .....simon." I asked with a little hesitation at his name.
His eyes go wide and sparkled a little at his name.
"You can go but you have to return in 2 hours" He said with a little husky voice.
I nodded my head and then went to open the door.
"Do you want to accompany me" I asked suddenly. Well if I want to know him more then I have spend time with him even if he scares me.
He look surprised at first but then his eyes turned curious.
He nodded and came after me.
We walked into the forest together without saying anything.
He was leading the way so I follow him mindlessly. Well if he wanted to kill me then I would have died that night. So I know he will not kill me but he can hurt me and that shit scares me.
We reached to a clearing near a beautiful lake. He sat down on the lake side. I look a place beside him but at a safer distance. He was looking ahead in the lake. I didn't know how to start a conversation so i just sat there quietly.

"Didn't your wolf wanted to run" He asked.
"Umm yeah she did" I stood up and went behind a tree to change. I took my dress off and changed into my brown wolf. My wolf was excited and she wanted to meet her mate. So I went back and give her full control.
She walked back to him. He was seeing her with a different emotion in his eyes. His eyes were changing colours between black and brown. She stood in front of him as if asking something. But I didn't know, what she was trying to do. Simon touched her with his hand and she suddenly jerked away as if afraid that he will hurt her. His eyes turned sad showing that he was hurt by her action.
His eyes turned fully black telling that it's his wolf in control.
"Mate, you are beautiful". He said quietly.
My wolf purred, hearing this. She pushed her head in his neck and started sniffing and licking him,saying that she likes him too. Simon chuckled and put her hand around her. Then she layed her head in his lap and closed her eyes. And he started stroking her fur. I was watching everything. I didn't know how he changed so much suddenly. Maybe it's because of my wolf. Some time letter he kissed her fur. She purred. She was loving the affection her mate was showing her. She then spotted a small rabbit near the bushes. She stood up from his lap and took after the small rabbit.
She stood silent near the bushes just observing the rabbit and when the Rabbit got busy eating a leaf, she suddenly jumped upon him and tore it's neck in few seconds. She then ate half of it and pulled the rest near the lake where his mate was. He has watched every thing and there was a smug smile on his fame showing that he was feeling proud.
My wolf put the rest in front of him and went to the lake. She took a bath in the lake and then came back to his mate.
His mate  was now in it's wolf form -alexander. She got happy and ran to him. They played together and then she got this wicked idea. She started running away from him.
Wolfs are very dangerous animal. They love a good chase. and my wolf clara wanted to give her mate a good chase. As if on cue Alexander ran after clara. She was fast but not more than the big bad alpha. In few minutes, he captured her and pushed her on the ground. At first she tried to get out of his hold. But after some time she got tired. Alexander was growling at her, telling her to submit to him but my wolf was in no mood to give him the submission easily so she looked into his eyes. His wolf didn't like it and he started growling loudly and pressed more of his weight on her.
Feeling the pressure she finally relented and moved upside down. So that all her vulnerable parts will be on show. Alexander finally looked satisfied. Clara showed her neck to Alexander submitting fully to him.

Alexander took this chance to start licking her neck. She started goofing. They were so close. They felt at peace. I was happy for them.
After some time he bent behind a tree and came back in his human form.
As if on cue, my wolf also bent behind the tree and i came back wearing the same cotton dress.

We sat on the lake, now a lot closer to each other. But I still put a significant amount of space between us. I am still a little scared of him because of that night.
He looked between the space and his eyes turned sad but he was quick to mask it. But I can feel it because of the mark. I can feel his emotions a little.
"Your wolf is beautiful, what is her name" he asked trying to start a conversation.
"Clara ... She also likes your wolf" I said with a small smile. That made him smile.
Then he came forward and tried to kiss me but I got scared and bend my face away from him. I was not ready not after what he did to me and he didn't even apologized yet for his behavior. He looked hurt at first but then his emotions turned angry.
"My wolf is not very patient, he will not wait longer mate". He said with no emotions in his face. All the magic from our earlier interaction fade away.
" So,... You... You will force me again" I said quietly. He looked taken aback for a moment and then composed himself.
"I will not do anything that my wolf doesn't agree with, you will Willingly tell me to take you" Hearing this I scoffed. I will never willingly do that I thought.
"Why is it half moon" I asked tried to turn the conversation toward my mark.
He body got stiff and he got up from the ground and ran in the direction of pack house.

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