anidita : age is just a number (Completed✓)

chapter-10 a wrong step

I was in a great dilemma  what should I do . I did not have the courage to  explain my yesterday's actions to Bondita so I left early. But before it I went to her room as my morning never starts without her . She was sleeping peacefully like a child . She is still a child . I don't want her to loose her innocence. Tears dropped from my eyes as I slowly caressed her hairs and then kissed  her foread . I immediately left as tears are continuously flowing from my eyes . I always thought that I am a strong person but today I feel that I am weakest.

I entered my cabin . My concentrate was not at work . My mind was in a deep delimma. Suddenly telephone rang . I picked up the call. "Hello patibabu"
Bondita I know she would be worried about me. I don't want her to suffer because of my problems . It is not her mistake."Haan bondita" ..I am trying to talk cheerfully otherwise I know my bondita will get to know my sorrow just my listening to my  voice. She knows me more than anyone else. "Aap chote bacche hai kya joh roj-roj aapko samjana  padega ki nasta khakar Jana chaiye". She scold me like a mother.  I just love to see her bossy nature. " Arey patnideviji  Mai aaj nasta Kah Kar gya hu aur Tiffin bhi Leke gya hu" I know she would be worried about me so I took the Tiffin. "Acha toh muje utha nhi sakte the aaapke ache se bye bhi nhi Bola Mene " she said  with disappoint. " sorry baba bass aaj aaj Ka kaam hai kal se roj phele tumhe uthaunga ab thik hai "
" Shotti "she said . I replied to her in her way. "Acha ab tumhara bhi school Jane Ka samay ho Raha hai ache se padhiye karna " If I will talk her for long she would definitely suspect my sadness .
" Thik hai patibabu Shyam ko kab tak aayenge". Salim had asked me to come his home today to discuss some case. So I will be late today. "Bondita vo aaj aane  Mai Der ho Jayegi vo Mera dost Salim haina  usne Kuch kaam se Ghar bulaya hai"
" Thik hai patibabu apna dhyan rakhiyega" she said with sadness . I know she want  to spend time with me . And I badly want to tell that that how much I miss her . But I can't. " Tum bhi apna dhyan Rakhna" .she end the call. I  started rembering the days when bondita was small . We easily spend time with eachother but now ...... . My heart wrench by thinking that she is not safe around me . Because of my  manly desires. Again tears brimmed in my eyes.

It was already 7 . I leave for salim's  house. I helped him  in solving the case
It was 8 by then. I was about to leave for home but he stopped me. " Arey Ghar toh roj he jata hai aaj thodha samay dosto ke sath bhi bita le " he asked . I want to go home . Bondita would be waiting for me. " Nhi yarrr  bondita Mera intejar Kar rhe hogi . Aise he bohut Der ho gyi hai "I again tried to leave but he stopped me.
"Arey ek din Ghar Der se  Chala Jayega toh Kuch nhi hoga" he went inside and bring a bottle of  champagne

." Bohut din ho gye chal aaj thodha gala gila Karle" 

he bring two glasses but I don't like to drink. I just want to go home . My bondita would be worried about me.

"Nhi yarr aaj Mann nhi hai" I tried to explain him.

" Mai janta hu Tu paresan hai, par isse tere Saare paresani dur ho Jayege " he. Instisted .

I agreed for just one glass but soon I gulped the whole bottle down . My mind became dizzy and my body was not stable.
"Salim mere bhai Mai kya batau mere bondita itne pyarri hai ki usse jitna bhi Dekh Lu Mann he nhi Bharata . "
I speak in a drunkish way. I take out my wallet and caressed her photo " par ab Uske pass Jane Mai dar Lagta hai Kahi Kuch galat na kardu " tears brimmed in my eyes and again I feel helpless. I want to go to her .
I badly want to hug her and kiss her. But I am afraid.

" Koi nhi bhai Iska ilaj bhi hai mere pass"
Suddenly doorbell ring and he come with  two girls his both hands are around their waist. Did  he had two girlfriends but he never told me about them . How bad!! this is really wrong to have two girlfriends  at the same time

. " Bhai inme se joh bhi Pasand ho vo aaj Raat ke liye tere tuje vo har  Sukh dege joh tuje chaiye . Aaj tere saree ichchayen pure hogi, tum Leke jao issse kamre Mai. Iska achese manronjan karna"

he said to one girl. What he is talking about . I don't want anyone near me. One girl came towards me and hold my hand . I tried to yanked my hand but she take me to a room forcefully. My feet are not stable. She pushed me towards bed and come towards me.
" Wah!!! Aap toh bohut sunder ho" she came towards me seductively.

I will not  lie  she is beautiful but nothing compared to my bondita . My bondita is an angel .Nobody is like her. She slowly come towards me. But my heartbeat did not increase I just feel uncomfortness. She slowly touch my chest  but no energy Rush through my viens .
I don't feel anything just pure disgust . I pushed her and immediately get out of room I was feeling  very uncomfortable because of her touch . I stumble in my  way to car. And then I remember how my heartbeat increases whenever my bondita touch me . I never feel uncomfortness because of her touch .
Her touch is just a pure bliss for me . I smiled remembering our moments .
Now I understand it is not  my manly desires . It is just a desire to be with her only MY BONDITA...

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