anidita : age is just a number (Completed✓)

chapter -19 without you ❣️

It's been two weeks since she left for hostel . But for me it is like two thousand years. I cannot breathe properly without her . She is my oxygen . Since she left I became liveless as she is my life. I don't know that it would be that much hard to live without her. I have left sleeping in study . Instead I  have started sleeping in her room on her bed . It makes me feel her presence . I usually took out one of her sarees from cupboard and slept by hugging it.  It feels like I am hugging her.and in these two weeks  I have developed a very bad habit . I had started drinking. I know it  is very injurious but the pain I am feeling in my heart is unbearable . She even did not look at me when she left .I had sent her letters but she never replied . I called her daily but she always refuses to talk to me. It broke my heart in zillion pieces . Did she started hating me????? No this is not happening . It is not possible . My bondita will never hate me . She likes me right!. But I think she liked me in past but after what I did with her . She had every right to hate me. I deserve her hate only . Tears always escaped from my eyes by thinking about it . The girl whom I loved the most in the world now will hate me . What an irony!!
Yes! I deserve all of these after what I did that night . I crossed my all lines  . I took her innocence away . I hate myself . I will never forgive myself. But then also I  don't want her to hate me . I know I am behaving selfish but let it be. I don't want her hate.please bondita don't hate me .....
I will rater die .
I had stopped drinking coffee after she left . off course  how could I .I like only her coffee . I usually skipped my meals . I know if she would be here . She will definitely give me a long lecture .as She always behaves like a mother . Everybody became so silent after she left . It is not Roy chaudary haweli it is just a mansion now . Now  a days kaka always became angry at small matters . He is not talking to me at all.  The day when I announced that I am sending her  to hostel . He opposed me and we had a big argument but I said
That she is my wife and I have every right to take her decisions. And after that he stopped talking to me. I know he is missing her bahu . I am also missing her .
Ask my heart that how much it is difficult for me .. But what can I do. It is last option for me. I can't compromise with her future. I will  never let her bound in these society ' s clutches. I will break every obstacle which will come in her way even if it is me. She is meant to fly in high sky . I will give her wings. And after the completion of studies . We can live a happy life together ..... But I don't know whether she want to live with me or not.
This thoughts. Wrench my heart but even if she want to leave me then I will let her go but after that I will  definitely die because I can't live without her and that is for sure . I crave for her voice . I crave to see her face. I am terribly missing you bondita . I can't live without you.......

Bondita' pov .
It's been two weeks since I came to hostel . Everything is nice here .  I have made few friends too But I terribly miss my family . I always used to cry at night sitting in the balcony by gazing at moon . I had bring a. Family photo and a single picture of patibabu with me . I used to question him angrily .why he did these to me???. What was my mistake ?? Why he send me away from him?? Why patibabu ? Why? I always breakdown after asking questions . I will never forgive him . I hate him I hate him!!!!!! But I know it is a absolute lie . I could never  able to hate him because I love  him so much . But whatever he did I will not forgive . Never. but even  after lashing out my anger on his picture . I used to sleep with it only. But that doesn't mean I will forgive him . I am not his puppet that whenever he likes he will come close to me and whenever he likes he will push me away from him😠😠.

He  used to sent me letters asking about how is everything but I never replied . He also used to call me daily but  I always cut the call .   . I know I used to pretend that it doesn't matter to me but inside my heart wrench by hurting him . It always hurt me more .why it is like this?? Why? The answer is I love him a way more to hate him ......... ....
End of pov

I know bondita never talk to me so I used to talk to her warden that how is she doing . She said that she is really great in studies but always remain silent and sad . My tears started falling that she is suffering because of me. But this is for her future only for her bright future . I know we both are suffering but it is important now. Today is Sunday . It is already afternoon . I think I should called in her hostel . I want to know how is she.
Before I could call . Phone started ringing . I quickly picked  it up but what  I heard make the phone fall from my hand....

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Precap- making her understand