I meant it // Karl jacobs x reader

I hope you know that

"I'm so sorry Karl you shouldn't have had to find out like this" you felt regret, scared, anxious and you began to breathe heavily again tears still dripping from your eyes you grip the back of Karl's shirt and hold on tighter. He lifts one hand up off your back and places it on the back of your head, stroking your hair softly.

"It's ok y/n," His voice and his motions sent chills down your spine but even though you knew he meant those words you still had doubts. "But why...why do you choose to stay Karl". Your brows furrow "I just don't understand why you would want to stay after this, I didn't trust you enough to tell you and I continued to hurt myself, aren't you upset?"

"No. your wrong in every way. Finding out about this situation makes me want to stay even more, I can't leave you when you need me most. I don't wanna lose you, what would have happened if I didn't get here when I did?". He stopped rubbing your head for a moment almost as if he was stunned by his own words. He was right you didn't know what would have happened if he didn't get here and your sure neither of you wanted think about it. You pick your head up and looks at him once more. His eyes puffy and red. His cheeks were a dark shade of pink and stained with tears. He was just looking into the distance, eyes wide open. He looks so lost.

Broken.

"Karl?" You asked. Karls eyes darted back to you. His eyes are filled with tears that haven't yet fallen. He blinked at you and the tears that were in his eyes now fell to the floor. He glanced down and back up again. "We should probably get out of this bathroom huh? Haha" he laughed but It wasn't genuine he was just trying to lighten the mood and you could tell something was on his mind, but you didn't question it, he was right you probably should get out of the bathroom. You pulled away from Karl and sat up "yeah your right we should". He leaned up and caught his balance then stood up. He reached his hand down at you to help you up, you grabbed his hand with the arm that wasn't in pain and pulled yourself up.

Karl walked over to the door which was still half way open from when he had first walked in and opened the rest of the way and held it open for you. You manage to smile at him and he smiles back. You walk out the bathroom and look back at Karl who is following you down the hallway towards the living room. Once you get to the living room you sat on the couch and waited for Karl to come sit beside you like always, but he didn't he instead walked over to the table beside the couch and picked up a black bag. "What's that?" You asked curiously.

"It's the whole reason I was coming over. I thought that since it's been kind of a hard day for you I should come over and cheer you up". He sits beside you and reaches his hand in the bag and pulls out a white can with a familiar design on the sides. A smile grew across your face and you let out a small laugh. "Karl you didn't have to do that". You said looking at him laughing. "Well it's not alot but I know it's your favorite monster flavor and monster always cheers me up so...." He hands you the can which is still cold surprisingly. You let out a small and faint giggle, "thank you". "HOLD ON don't open it yet you don't have these" you look at Karl in confusion. He puts his hand back in the bag and pulls out a bag of gummies, watermelon flavor. He smiles at you and giggles. you place you monster on the side table and reach over to Karl and wrap your arms around his neck. "thank you". He puts the bag beside him on the floor and wraps his arms around your waist and lightly squeezes and pulls you closer. You adjust yourself so that you are on his lap you pull your head back and look at Karl in a look that asks if this is ok, he nods.

before you lay your head down again you looked into his ocean blue eyes, you lift one of your hands and put it on the back of Karl's head, playing with his hair a little, he placed one hand on your cheek causing you to let out a small breath. You glance at karl's lips and back into his eyes, before you knew it his and  your lips were intertwined. You pull away for a second and continue the eye contact "was I not suppose to do that?" Karl asked in a half joking tone. Instead of responding you kissed him again this time not pulling away until you needed air.

"I love you y/n" Karl spoke with soft words while lightly rubbing your cheek with his thumb. "I hope you know that".

A/N ---  I'm sorry for not really updating this I haven't had any motivation plus I've been working on improving my mental health and also just a heads up the next chapter might be smut and if it is it might be really cringe but its ok bc it's the thought that counts😀