I meant it // Karl jacobs x reader

Guilt.

TW: light description of face injuries :)

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Getting out if the shower and drying off it comes to your realization that Karl never actually put the clothes on the counter. You reach for your phone to text him to see if he even got them out yet but you decide to check his bed first.

You wrap your towel around your chest and make sure it covers everything before you step out the bathroom. Karl's room is up stairs so he was most likely talking about the guest room which is beside the bathroom. you open the door to the guest room and flip the switch looking around the room, your eyes land on the edge of the bed. Your clothes.

It was his Quackity my beloved shirt and some grey sweats that were made smaller then regular men's sizing. You really didn't have the energy to put your bra on so you didn't. The shirt smelled just like him, Faint Apple cinnamon and Cologne. You pulled the shirt over your head and down your torso. You dried your legs a little more just to make putting your pants on Easier. You pulled them up over your thighs. You pulled the draw strings to tighten them around your waist and tied them in a loop.

You flip your head over and scrunched and rub your hair with your towel until it was only somewhat wet. You hung the damp heavy towel on the door knob, turned the light off and walked back to the living room. Karl was sitting on the couch were he usually sits. He was on his phone.

"Hey" you said with a smile on Your face as you cuddled up next to him. "hey love!" He exclaimed he kissed your forehead softly and smiled back at his phone. His head rested atop yours and you move around for a second getting comfortable. He scrolled for another minute or so and turned his phone off "you feel better?" He asked "yeah I'm good what about you?" You asked back "Yeah I drank some water and laid here while you showered" he sighed

You looked up at him...Guilt. Its your fault he got punched...its not like you meant for it to happen but you cant rid that funny feeling...you caught yourself starring at him for a minute. You remembered what he looked like this morning...his soft skin with no marks in sight.

His face was cleaned now, But that just meant you had to look at the marks on his face more clearly, to see how bad they were. His bottom lip is split close to the corner of his mouth, his eye was purple, his nose had a pinkish red tint around the tip. Blood stains under his nostrils. You felt terrible. why did Michael have to do any of the things he did. to you, to Karl, probably his EX's too. Your glad your with Karl now...you didn't have to worry about him anymore--at least for now....your ok. But for once you wished Michael had hit you. WHY FOR ONCE- WHY COULDN'T IT HAVE BEEN YOU. You hated seeing Karl like this he reminded you too much of yourself. You felt your eyes start to water.

You inhaled a deep breath and exhaled. not today. not right now. Not for a while. All that matters is that you are in Karl's arms, Safe....maybe. You still haven't told Karl the full story about everything. The reason you cant look in the mirror, the bruises. Its hard but you have to tell him eventually... Maybe today...maybe tomorrow, next week, next year. You know its better to get it off your chest instead of repressing it, but no one ever wanted to hear you out. They didn't care. You don't know how to talk about your feelings. You never have.

"You ok love?" Karl asked. You shook your head and snapped out if it. "Ohh yeah im ok I was just thinking"
You sighed

"About what? you look like your about to cry?"

"Uh yeah I think I just need to get some sleep" God damnit why can you not just tell him already.

Karl smiled at you and spoke

"you look sad" you know that clip from Karl's Pokémon stream when Karl and sap made eye contact and then Karl made a frown face....yeah that's the face he made when he said sad

"there's just a lot in my mind right now Karl, NOTHING against you but I just need to go to bed, Ill talk about it tomorrow" you said debating weather or not that was a lie.

"Could I sleep with you tonight if that's ok!"

"Of course you can sleep with me, but the right side of the bed is mine" And in that moment you wanted to break down and cry. Vent. Tell him everything but you just couldn't find words all you could do was just hug Karl tighter.

"How bout you go shower Karl, I know its hard sometimes but you need to take care of yourself"

He sighs "your right" he playfully rolled his eyes standing up "did you use the rest of my conditioner?"

You smiled to yourself, maybe this wouldn't be so bad. "No, but hurry up and shower so we can eat and then go to bed, I might just doordash- sound good?" you made a half smile to try and lighten your own mood. Karl scratched the back of his neck for a second "uhh yeah sounds good, where you gonna doordash from?" you stared blankly into his face. "MCDONALDS DUHH" you jokingly yelled at him. "OOH can you get me a McChicken with extra mayo and no lettuce AND A LARGE FRY IT BETTER NOT BE MEDIUM" he asked with a small but obvious sarcastic voice. "yeah I will whatcha want for a drink? dr pepper or a monster from the kitchen?" you said trying to get every single detail for his order so you wont mess it up. "I'll take a Dr pepper, I don't need anymore monsters I already wont sleep tonight I've had like 3" he shook his own head and walked down the hallway towards the bathroom. you shook you head with a smile.

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HEY GUYSSS<3 SORRY FOR THE DELAY

ive been trying to get this out as soon as i can but ive been struggling with school plus ive been sick for this whole week and im sick while writting this so yeah times have been better but its out now and i apologize if this doesnt make sense ive been writing it off and on :) but HERES GUILT.

hope you enjoy this chapter and there are new chapters otw and a new book so look out for that

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