I meant it // Karl jacobs x reader

"we can talk, sure"

CW//:  PTSD flashbacks

STAY SAFE <3

This chapter covers heavy topics so please just be safe or if anything make you anxious stop reading and take a breath I know how hard it is to read something about a past you wanna move away from, it's not written well but you get the idea.

Enjoy :)
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You placed the order and sat there, waiting. You scrolled through the messages you never opened.

Lover<3

You needed to change his name or block him. You were worried if you blocked him or did something to piss him off he would make sure you or Karl knew he was pissed, he would track you down somehow or another. You don't know. You opened the message, it read....

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"This is an apology y/n... look Ik I fucked up, but don't we all. I love you and you need to realize that I love you more then Karl. I love you more then he ever will. So much more so if your not stupid you will come back to me."
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WAS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE NICE- what the fuck is wrong with him. He is a sick mother fucker and you just hope Karl will never have to see that message. For fucks sake he got beat up because of you, that proves something right.  He took a beating for love, Michael beat you for love.... You have to get over him but everything makes you think of him. In a sick way you missed him, you missed when he would laugh and kiss your forehead, you missed when you and him fell asleep cuddling.... And that's what you and Karl's relationship ship was, that's what you loved about him. You saw Karl's good side all the time you didn't have to worry about his bad side, his bad side was the silent treatment and raising his voice, he knew how to handle his emotions and not throw punches or-

You stopped your thoughts there. You knew what he did you just didn't want to say the official Word...but when he wanted something he got it. No matter if you weren't in the mood or how many times you said no...he always won.

You feel like you let your self down. Every time. Every single time. Your mind flashed back to him. His hands over your mouth. His nails in your back. Your wrists pinned down. You laid there, motionless. If you moved it was no good, he thrusted harder and harder. You were stuck replaying every moment of those dark times your hands shook. Your breath was getting harder to catch up to. The shakes crawled up your skin. Your whole body was shaking. Your hands covers your ears. The silence grew louder and louder. Your ears were in pain. Your head was spinning. You brought your legs up to your chest and buried your head in between them. "Stop" you said under your breath. "STOP" you shouted, but it didn't help the room grew more and more loud as every second passed. "STOP PLEASE!" You felt like your voice was playing in your head, like you weren't real. Like you were drowning in the noise. "Y/N?" You heard Karl's voice, but you couldn't see him. You could tell he put his hand on your back trying to calm you but if felt like it passed right through you.

"MAKE IT STOP KARL PLEASE" you screamed, and Karl took you into his arms. The room stopped spinning for a split second, long enough to take a breath. "Hey hey hey y/n it's okay it's just me your gonna be alright, it's all gonna be alright." He placed his hand on your cheek "look, it's just me y/n your safe" you opened you eyes and met with Karl's. "Your safe, I'm not gonna hurt you, no one can hurt you." He was crouched in front of you on the floor while you sat on the couch. "Karl..." you said with a shaky voice. "Karl he wouldn't stop~" you said. "I couldn't move~" you continued. "Y/n, look your okay now, your safe hes not here it's just me and you okay" he sat beside you. One arm around you the other on your cheek. "See it's just me" he smiled. You tried to smile back but your mind kept playing on repeat " MICHEAL STOP" you yelled "SHUT UP, don't even try you know your easy" he snapped. Tears streamed down your face.

Karl's smile took over the image...all you felt was guilt. You looked at him, the room suddenly falling silent. "Karl I'm sorry, that happens sometimes and I'm so glad you are here to help me that time" you looked at the floor...Karl was nice but for what? He knows your a mess but he still loves you. Why would anyone waste their time with a person like you, problematic and traumatized. "Seriously, usually I would just uh....you know" you looked down at your exposed arms and looked back at Karl "uh we don't need to talk about it right now though Karl but thanks" you smiled. Karl smiled back holding your hand and placing a kiss on your forehead "we can talk when your ready...but for right now check where that food is I'm starving" he sighed in relief, taking you into his arms falling onto the couch, you on his chest. "Yeah let me" you laughed snatching your phone from the arm of the couch. You saw you missed a notification it read "Jason is 6 minutes away" you looked up at Karl "Jason~ ohh he sounds kinda" you teased sitting up planting a kiss on karls lips he smiled, "don't get any ideas, jacobs is way hotter then Jason" he kissed you back, a notification comes from your phone. "Wait is that jason!?" So sarcastically gasped breaking the kiss. You checked it, it read "Jason is 1 minute away" you placed the phone face down and put your arms on karls chest laughing "OMG HES 1 MINUTE AWAY" you mocked. "OMG" karl played along "what are we doing" he asked, "I DONT KNOW" you giggled, the door bell ringing interrupted the...what ever was even happening. Karl jumped up "I got it turn a show on or something" he said opening the door. You grabbed the Roku and turned on and went to Karl's account, the other ones being Chris, Nolan, and what your guessing was a guest one. Karl sat back down with the bags of food, after placing the drinks on the side table. The smell was making you drool. He looked in one of the bags, "a chicken sandwich and a Large fry...y/n you shouldn't have" he said jokingly and sweetly. "So that must mean in this bag is your food, king" he said handing you the second bag. You opened it to find a 10 piece and a medium fry. Classic but your favorite. Karl placed the bag beside him and was eating the fries. He grabbed the remote and turned on a random movie.
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The credits rolled and you were slurping on ice, eating the last fry, your jaw dropped "THATS HOW THEY END IT, SHE FUCKING DIES!?" You exclaimed. "I guess, why would she even" he stopped "never mind this pissed me off" he shook his head with a small laugh. "Hey uhh can we talk for a sec?" You asked, Karl sat up, "we can talk, sure" Karl smiled.
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BABE WAKE UP A NEW CHAPTER OF I MEANT IT DROPPED

Okay hate me if you wanna but I was stuck on this chapter :( I didn't know where to go with the plot :O But it's a chapter the next one might be a little longer then almost (don't quote me on that)