I meant it // Karl jacobs x reader

goodnight y/n <3

cw: mention of abusive relationships/ SH and ED's

Let me know if I missed any

"hey Y/N can I ask you a question?"  he sighed scratching the back of his neck "sure Karl" you say. "Is it alright if I come over?" He never asked to come visit you before, in fact you thought no one would bother to come see you. "I know its a weird time to ask this but I'm genuinely concerned for you I just want you to be safe".  you managed to stable your breathing so you respond "Karl I would love if you came over but, I think after this call ends, whenever that may be, I might go to bed, its been a long day." you said, you knew you wanted karl to come over but you were scared what would happen  if he did and you didn't wanna risk hurting him. "that's fine, Uhhh sorry, I just hate seeing you cry because when I see you cry it makes me feel like I cant be there for you and I always wanna be there for you, y/n"

You smile at the words coming from his mouth. "I get that but I just don't wanna be a burden to you". You looked down in thought. You knew you regretted saying no to him but you just didn't want to put all this onto him it wasn't his fault you were feeling like this and it wasn't his fault you stayed up all night crying and saying negative things about your self. Believing it. All the words your ex boyfriend said, replaying in your head. You loved him more then yourself sometimes it felt like the only part you had left of yourself just... left. Just like that. But deep down you knew it was best for him to leave, that relationship was built off of toxicity and manipulation, it was your trauma that drew him in he knew he could take advantage of you.....so he did.

But when you looked back up at karl all the thoughts fading away as you looked into his eyes that seemingly glowed in the light. "You could never be a burden to me, your my best friend and I care for you. More then you think I do". The words made you smile wide, you were lucky to have him. "You promise you won't leave me.....just like him". Karls face lit up suddenly. "So that's what happened, did he break up with you?!". Karl's face went from a smile to angry really fast you've never seen him this mad. "Karl I'm sorry I didn't tell you I should've told y-" you were cut off suddenly. "its not your fault, he broke your heart then just left. Its not your place to tell me that when you feel like that, I told you tell me when your ready, so if you wanna wait to tell me that's fine I won't push it out of you". He exhaled pushing his emotions back. "No its fine....I actually feel like I need to talk about it". Karl looked at you with a soft face "then I'll listen, but only if your ready".

"Karl, he said I spend to much time with you, and I told him that he just keeps ghosting me and that I felt like our whole relationship was a joke to him, but he blamed it all on you. He hates your guts and its not fair because your my bestfriend" you felt tears from in your eyes. You swallow hard not wanting to cry again. "And- I just don't understand anything anymore at this point". A tear rolled down your cheek, you looked down to hide the fact your crying from karl. You felt another teat hit you leg. "I'm done Karl". You looked back up and met his gaze through the screen. "Please don't say that I'm here if u need to talk and always will be". You blink at his words you wanted to keep telling him everything but you didn't wanna get that upset again. "Hey uh since its getting late do you just wanna watch the office on discord, just to get my mind off things.....please". You finally sigh. "OF COURSE, I LOVE THAT SHOW!".

You felt a smile grow on you face and your cheeks light up a bit causing you to let out a little giggle

"OK karl u get it pulled up while I go use the bathroom real quick" you say standing up waiting for him to respond once he did u took your headset off and lay it down on your desk. You walk in to the bathroom and look in the mirror your face was red and puffy from all that crying and seeing yourself like this almost made you break again but you had to stay strong and it was gonna be OK. You knew you had to forget about the toxic way he loved you. "its OK" you tell yourself you glance down at you leg seeing the bruise he left there from a previous fight. "Shit" you breathe out. You make eye contact with your reflection you hardly recognized yourself. You stopped eating because he said you were getting fat, you had scars on you arms and thighs from how he made you feel, you had bruises on your body from his toxic love. You weren't yourself. You missed the old you. The one he changed.

You reach down and turn the sink on grabbing a rag from the shelf beside you. You wash your face gently, you had a tiny gash under your ear that you covered with your hair. Your just glad karl never noticed.

Once finished you open the door and turn the light off making sure you close the door on your way out.

"OKAYYYYY you almost done Karl?" You say as you place your headset back on your head. "Yup I was waiting for you to get back to press play" karl says smiling up from his phone. "Yesssss I love this episode" You laugh. Karl places his phone on his desk and sits up to press play. You stared at karl every once in a while just to see him smile. Karl made all your problems disappear, when your with him you could feel your mind go clear and worries drift away as you stared into his beautiful blue eyes.

You and karl just enjoyed each others presence it was nice. you needed this.

Karl looked up at his screen and stared at you. You didn't even notice, he looked down at the clock 10:30 PM

"Hey y/n imma head to sleep its kinda late, I'll text u tomorrow sorry for just leaving but I'm tired" he frowned. you look at his face cam "oh no worries I need to shower so i guess its a good thing your leaving". You look him in the eyes through the screen and smile. He waves both hands like a child while smiling "BYE Y/N SEE YA". He leaves the VC and you stand up and stretch your arms back, arching your back and tilting your head back letting out a yawn. You walk to your dresser and search for some comfy clothes like a t-shirt and shorts.

You were about to open your door but you got a notification from discord. You walk back over to your bed and lay your clothes down beside you as you sit and reach for your phone. When you picked it up the screen lit up. Karl private messaged you. You click on the notification and unlock your phone. You smile and let out a soft giggle after reading it

"Good night y/n <3"

You bring your phone to your chest and lean backwards onto your pillows not letting the smile off your face.