as long as i'm here / / billie eilish

chapter 20 - i heard everything

"are you okay baby? you seem a little off" Billie asked while we were driving home.

"i'm fine, i am just tired".

"i hate seeing you like this" she whispered.

"like what?" i asked with a bit of attitude i didn't intend to have.

"sad"

"Billie i swear i'm okay"

"Skylar i know you-"

"can we please not talk about this right now?" i begged not wanting to see my fear come true, not wanting to see her in pain because of me.

"yeah, i'm sorry" she said with her eyes focused on the road.

"you don't have to be sorry" i whispered back. these were the last words that were said for the rest of the drive. we both stayed silent, just some soft music playing in the background.

"we're back home baby" Billie screamed with a huge grin on her face. "what do you wanna do tonight?"

"i don't know. can we stay inside and watch a movie or something?" i suggested.

"sounds like a plan, i'm in"

we both got out of the car and walked into the house, holding hands. i immediately went to her room to change and she went to the kitchen to grab some stuff.

i was standing in the middle of the room with only underwear on looking from something comfortable to wear when i felt two cold hands against my hips.

"you're so sexy babygirl" she whispered in my ear and pulled my body closer to hers.

before i could say anything back she placed her lips on my neck and started sucking my skin. i let out a breathy moan when she found my sweet spot. then, she turned me around and connected our lips. the kiss was slow and gentle, unlike the heated atmosphere a few moments ago. i cracked a smile.

she was the first to pull away. "i really really like you Bil" i whispered and kissed her nose. "i love you" i wanted to say. "i heard you at the hospital. no, i wasn't sleeping. i heard everything. i love you too. i'm sorry i can't show it now but i do love you. and i will do everything that's best for you".

"i like you too baby. way too much" she chuckled. "now, you still tryna see that movie, right?"

"of course!".

"alright i brought us some snacks" she said and pointed to a bag of donuts. "which movie do you wanna see?"

"well, i think i wanna show you my favourite movie".

"oh my God, really? i think someone's favourite movie says a lot about them, so i am really curious about it. how is it called?"

"it's an anime called 'i want to eat your pancreas'. get ready to cry your fucking eyes out, oh my God"

"i think i've heard about it but never had the time to watch it so let's watch it now. don't say any spoilers or i'll be mad" she threatened me in a joking way.

"i won't i promise" i chuckled. "and i'd like to hear your honest review when the movie's done"

"let me grab my laptop, i am excited. oh, also, do you wanna watch my favourite movie sometime?"

"if you're talking about fruitvale station i've watched it like a billion times because of you but i will be more than happy to watch it with you".

"fuck, i forgot the whole internet knows about my favourite movie" she said and let out a laugh.

"this is it?" she asked me pointing on the screen of her laptop.