as long as i'm here / / billie eilish

chapter 27 - i'll miss you

smut

i called my boss to let him know i accept the offer and he said the company at New York would book me a flight for next week. both Billie and i were very upset about the little amount of time we had left together.

"how long are you gonna stay there again?" Billie asked, her voice muffled since her head was buried in the crook of my neck.

"three or four months, it's not sure" i answered, massaging her scalp.

"fuck, i will miss you".

"i'll miss you too Billie but-"

"but it's for the better and you need it. i know Skylar, i know" she cut me off. "but i'll still miss you".

"don't worry, i will come back as soon as i'm done. plus, you can always fly over New York to visit me. don't you have a connecting flight to New York on your way back from London?".

Billie would go to London in three weeks to do a radio show and some interviews.

"oh damn, you're right i forgot about London. i'll definitely come visit you but you know i can't stay for more than a week or so".

"i know Bil but it's still something" i told her and kissed the top of her head. "i need to start going through my stuff and figure out what i need to take with me".

i tried to sit up but Billie wouldn't move. "but i'm comfortable now" she pouted, her eyes closed. "can't we wait five more minutes?".

"baby i need to do it. you don't need to help but you have to get up, please" i whispered in her ear but she still didn't move. i started tickling her and she busted out laughing.

"stop" she yelled and tried to tickle me back but i grabbed her arms. "okay you won, i'll help".

"ah great, good girl" i muttered and helped her get up.

Billie and i started going through my stuff and decided that i should take everything with me since i had mostly clothes and self care products that were all necessary, so i'd probably miss whatever i might have left back. the apartment i would be given would be furnished so i only had to get my personal stuff. Billie let me borrow a duffel bag because i couldn't fit all my things in mine.

"i think we're done" i told Billie while looking at the three duffel bags on the floor.

"wait, i wanna give you something" she said and headed to her closest. she brought out a white hoodie. if i was not mistaken it was the hoodie she wore at Coachella. "i want you to take this with you" she said and proceeded to give me the hoodie but stopped her movements. "wait".

she went over her bedside table and took in her hands a bottle of perfume. she sprayed a ton of perfume on the hoodie. "here, something to remind me of you while you're gone".

"God, thank you Billie you're adorable" i said and gave her a quick peck on her lips. then, i did the exact same thing. i grabbed my favourite tshirt, one with the album cover of a Beatles' album, and sprayed it with my favourite perfume. "you can keep this" i said as i put the tshirt on her closet.

"can we cuddle now?" Billie pouted.

"of course" i said and jumped on the bed with her following me. she laid on top of me and rested her head on my chest. i tangled my fingers between her hair and kissed all over her head.

"i will miss you" i whispered and took a deep breath, filling my lungs with her scent.

she lifted her head and connected her lips with mine, her tongue swiping across my lips. i let a low hum into the kiss and held her face. she sat up and straddled my hips, never breaking the kiss. i placed my hands on her lower back and rubbed her skin under her shirt. then, she started grinding on me.

"i need you" she moaned into the kiss.

with that, i turned us around and pinned her down onto the bed. "i'm gonna make you feel good babygirl" i mumbled and felt her tense up under me.

with one swift movement i removed her shirt and leaned down to kiss her. slowly, i made my way down to her jaw and then her neck. i sucked on her skin and a whimper escaped her lips. "i need you Skylar" she moaned again.

"don't rush it babe, i'll make sure to give you what you want".

my hands travelled to her back and unclipped her bra. my lips made their way down to her chest and closed over the nipple of her left breast. i attempted to mirror my movements with my fingers on her right nipple.

after a few moments i trailed kisses down her body till her waistband. "can i take this off?" i asked and looked up to her. she nodded eagerly.

i removed both her shorts and underwear and paused for a second to scan the masterpiece under me. "you're so beautiful" i muttered.

i leaned down on my elbows, face to face with her dripping pussy. i decided to be kind of an asshole and tease her some more by kissing all over her inner thighs without touching her centre.

"Skylar" she whined but i cut her off by licking a bold stripe on her clit. she grasped loudly and i couldn't help but laugh at her reaction. i parted her lips with my thumbs and spit on her clit, watching it drip down her hole.

my tongue moved in circles on her clit and low moans came out of her mouth. i stopped for a little and brought two fingers in my mouth and sucked on them. then, i slowly inserted the middle one on her hole and my tongue worked on her clit again.

"fuck, harder" were the only words she managed to let out between harsh breaths and moans.

i slipped my ring finger inside her and pumped harder, the edges of my nails hitting her g spot. my free hand made its way to her thigh and started rubbing her skin.

"oh my God, i'm close"

i went faster to help her reach her high and she held on the sheets tightly. her mouth dropped open but no sounds came out. she arched her back and her eyes rolled back.

"shit, i'll cum Skylar" she screamed and released all over my fingers moments later.

i put both fingers in my mouth and sucked her cum off. her breaths were heavy and her body was shaking slightly. i leaned down to kiss her one last time before she got up to take a shower.

on her way to the bathroom she turned around to me. "i will miss this" she said with a wink and disappeared into the hallway.

A/N: sorry i haven't updated in a couple of weeks guys, i was hella busy and unmotivated. i'm back now, hopefully i'll update more often

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