Fixing a Broken Heart

Chapter 27

Forth punched the wall with his right hand. Beam winced when he saw Forth's fist injured. Blood came out of the peeled skin. Slowly, Beam moved closer and hugged Forth from behind. He put his arms around Forth's waist and laid his head on Forth's back which felt stiff.

"Please, honey, don't be like this. I can't stand to see you hurt yourself," Beam sobbed softly. "I'm sorry, honey, please forgive me."

Forth put his forehead against the wall and closed his eyes. His breathing was fast and heavy. He turned around and pulled Beam tightly into his arms. He lowered his head and buried his face in Beam's neck. Beam's tears rolled down his shirt, pouring a cold feeling into his chest.

Forth lifted Beam into his arms and carried him to bed like a koala. Beam hangs tightly on Forth's neck. Forth sat leaning on the bed with his back against the head of the bed and Beam sat on his lap facing him, with his head still pressed tightly against his chest. Forth cupped Beam's face with both hands and looked deeply into his eyes. Beam's beautiful eyes, brilliant with tears.

"You know, Beam? I almost killed Max when I found out what happened. Even now I still want to strangle him, even though I know it's not his fault," said Forth quietly. He rubbed Beam's soft cheek with his thumb. "I nearly killed myself hitting the pavement while speeding to get here. Now, are you asking my permission to meet that madman? Don't you feel sorry for me in the least, Beam, that you so easily gave yourself up to die at the hands of that bastard?"

Beam's heart ached to see tears flowing from the eyes of the man he loved. He held both of Forth's hands which were still cupping his cheeks. "No. No, honey. I didn't mean it like that. However, I'm worried that he will continue to do crazy things to the people around me if I don't do what he wants. I don't want to hide anymore and make everyone around me suffer. I have to face it. Those kids shouldn't be victims because I was cowardly. I chose to commit suicide rather than endure lifelong feelings of guilt towards Kit and Ming for being the cause of their children's harm, after I made them lose their belongings. "

Beam reached out and wiped Forth's tears. Forth looked tired and upset. Beam admired the good looks of his lover. He touched Forth's face and traced his solid jaw line with his index finger. His finger stopped in front of Forth's lips which were in the shape of a perfect arc.

Forth kissed Beam's index finger and shook his head. "How am I going to live if something happens to you, Beam?" complained Forth. "We don't know what that bastard will do. You don't even remember what your relationship with him is."

"I remember he was my ex-adopted brother. I just don't remember what I did to him that made him go crazy like this. Something I did that had something to do with you, because it turned out that he was Stiff, the person closest to you before your traitor."

Beam leaned forward and kissed Forth's lips softly. Forth groaned softly when he felt Beam's warm tongue licking the surface of his lips and Beam's soft lips sucked his lips.

Forth grabbed Beam's back neck and pressed his lips against Beam's lips. He stuck his tongue through Beam's mouth. Forth bit softly Beam's lower lip and heard Beam's soft sigh in his mouth. He explored Beam's mouth until he felt Beam's breath starting to gasp. Forth let go of the Beam and put their foreheads together.

"Max is looking for him, Beam," muttered Forth.

"I know, honey, but we're probably running out of time," Beam whispered.

"I'm scared," Forth's voice trembled. "I've never felt so scared in my life."

"I know that too, honey, but I'm even more afraid of the fact that I might live in regret for the rest of my life."

"I love you, Baramee Vongviphan. I want to make you Baramee Jaturapoom Jamorhnoom, but how should I do it when you're gone?"

"Oh, my dear," Beam pulled Forth's broad shoulders into his arms. Forth's face was buried in his neck and he felt Forth sobbing softly. Beam kissed Forth's thick hair and rubbed his burly back. His heart soared to feel how much love Forth was for him. "I'll be back, baby. I'll always come back to you. I'll be back to claim your name to put behind mine."

Forth kissed Beam's neck and traced his soft skin with his lips. He took a deep sip of the sweet vanilla scent of Beam's skin. Beam sighed softly. The hairs on his neck growled.

Forth distanced himself from Beam. He looked at Beam deeply. "I will grant your request. You may go to see him, with two conditions from me."

Beam nodded. He was a little relieved by Forth's decision. Stefan only gave him two days to come to him, before he started hurting Leo and Loui.

Beam doesn't want to waste time. Kit is still lying in the hospital because he is too shocked to hear that his children have been kidnapped by Stefan's men who have infiltrated Max's men.

Ming is furious and he intervenes alone, along with Max and his men, to track down where Stefan is taking his children.

"One. I'll plant a tracking device on you. It will let me know where you are, as well as record the conversation between you as evidence. Two. Never let go of the device no matter what. Understand?"

Beam nodded quickly. He kissed Forth again and smiled gently. "I understand, my lovely husband."

"Don't provoke me, my little doctor. You may have to pay me more, after forcing me to let you see that bastard," Forth growled. He bit Beam's lower lip exasperated.

"Aah... I'll pay you well for the rest of my life, my lovely husband," breathed Beam against Forth's lips. "I am yours."

Forth looked Beam's eyes deeply and whispered. "I love you so much, my loveliest husband. Just remember that. Remember us."

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