Sometimes I think to myself, why am I so angry almost all the time. Like i swear every shit makes me tick. I mean thats just who I am and I'm not changing for no one. My names Veronica Taylor. I'm 18 years old. I'm a senior in highschool, thank God. I'm from new york. I'm half black and spanish. I'm the middle child of my family. I have older brother and a younger one. Did i mention i was the only girl? Sucks, but these guys made me tougher. Now I'm not saying I'm a fighter, but nobody fucking with me. Anyways I'm gonna start writing a diary soon, just to have a way to express my feelings. I heard it helps and I want to find out. I'll start that shit tomorrow though. As for now I got to go to school.
I go to the kitchen and i see my parents all hugged up. I must say I'm blessed to have such great loving parents but this shit is kind of nasty.
"Ahem!" I clear my throat.
My mom jumped back. "I'm sorry honey, I didn't know you were there." She says.
"Claudia don't apologize to that girl, why yo' ass ain't in school?" My dad asks.
"I go in later today dad, I'm actually leaving now. Any of ya'll wanna drive me?" I ask them.
They didn't respond.
"I'll take that as a no. I'll just drive one ya'll cars. Dont matter to me. See you guys later, bye!" I say while snatching my moms keys and running out the door. I know my mom hates when i drive her benz but that should tell her to get me a car. Anyways as I was driving downtown to school, my phone was ringing but i ignored it. I'm a cautious ass driver and I'm not about to get into a car accident because a phone call. Whoever that was is just going to have to wait.
Once i got to school, it was just a routine to me. Girls grilling me and guys staring at me. Now i wasn't the most gorgeous girl here but my parents did bless me. I go into my history class and see my bestfriend there. She saved me a seat, how sweet.
"Girl, i thought you wasn't coming today! I was gonna beat yo' ass" she tells me.
My bestfriends name is Chloe. She's half asian and black. We've been bestfriends since the 8th grade and nothing can tear our friendship apart. Sure we do get into arguments and we get on eachothers nerves but hey? Whose bestfriend doesnt? Its more of a sister relationship to me.
"Sorry boo, i overslept a little. I was speeding to get here early." I tell her.
"Shit even when class starts later, you still get here late. I swear blac-"
"Black people what? Bitch you black too!" My other friend Sasha says. Now this bitch is just straight up fierce. She just ghetto as hell. But there's something about the way she carries herself that drives guys crazy. I met her during my 10th grade year.
"Girl, i know. Dang Sasha calm down. Have a seat. Class about to start." Chloe tells her. As Chloe tells her that, the teacher finally walks in. This gon' be a long day.
It was finally lunch time. The girls and I decided to sit outside to eat. The weather is beautiful, it's spring time. As we were eating and talking, mostly talking, one of the seniors from the football team came to talk to us. It was Angelo. Now this boy is something every girl wished she had. He had it all, the brains, the look, athletic all that. But i wasn't attracted to him one bit.
"Wassup ladies." He tells us.
We all said hi to him back.
"Hows ya'll day going?" He asks us. I tuned him out and began to look at my phone. I started responding to texts that I've been ignoring lately.
"Im just tryna talk to your beautiful friend Veronica." Angelo says while looking at me.
"Oh, wasssup Angelo?" I ask him.
"I was wondering if I could finally take you out this weekend? I hope you don't say no this time." He tells me.
I think long & hard. But i finally came up with an answer. "You know the answer is no and i hate telling you no all the time but my asnwer isn't gonna change, I'm sorry."
He looked at me & smiled. "Dont worry, you'll say yes soon. Dont keep a nigga waiting though. Its a whole bunch of girls who want me but i see something in you. See you later Veronica." He finally walked away from our table.
The girls just sat there giving me death glares.
"What?!!" I tell them.
"Why dont you just go out with him? It won't kill you." Chloe tells me.
"Just doesn't feel right." I tell her.
"Lord Veronica this better have nothing to do with Carlos. If he wanted you he wo-
"Leave that damn girl alone Chloe! If she don't want Angelo then she don't want him damn. Shit if it bothers you so much, you take him then." Sasha tells Chloe.
"I would never do my best friend like that." She says.
"Ight can we go to class already?" I ask them while getting up. These girls stay bickering at each other. That shit is annoying. Luckily for my last class i didn't have it with neither of them. So now i get to be to myself in class.
As i get to my last class. I pulled out my phone and started texting.
Me: wassup?
Carlos: waddup
Me: nothing in class bored, hbu?
Carlos: shit im chillin.. Why you not paying attention in class for?
Me: lol shut up! I am.
Carlos: lol smh always tellin me to shutup, you mean as hell V.
Me: 😐 Los you know I'm not mean. I just miss you thats all.
Carlos: imytoo babee you coming over today?
Me: I really wish i could but i cant :( I have to work today..
Carlos: ight.
Me: wyd still nothing?
Carlos: i'll hit you up later, I'm type busy.
Me: okay 😘
I already knew he wasn't going to hit me up later. So why am I hoping that he does? Sometimes i regret meeting him but other times I can't see myself with anyone else but him. But in reality its up to me to let him make me or break me.
