I was in school chilling by myself. Chloe and Sasha aint even here, I'm so mad at these bitches. I mean i have friends in school, shit I'm pretty popular but i never let the hype get to me. I just wished my two girls were here, they would've helped me get my mind off of Carlos. I haven't heard from him since that day and i'm homestly okay with it. Okay why am I lying? I feel like an emotional wreck. This nigga has me wrapped around his finger and he knows it too. Every time i say I'm done i never mean it. Because reality speaking, I'm not done yet. Im not ready to let him go even though i should.
"Hey beautiful, you look like you thinking hard about something."
I turn around and see Angelo behind me.
"Hey wassup." I tell him.
"Nothing..i was chilling with my boys and i saw ya' lonely ass here. Where ya friends at?" He asks me.
"They ain't wanna come. So I'm just here by my lonely." I tell him.
"Mind if i sit here? You look type wierd sitting by ya self, honestly." He says while chuckling.
"I aint stopping you, go ahead." I tell him.
He sits right across from me.
"So wassup? You look like you been thinking about something important. You good?" He asks me.
"Yeah, I'm good. How are you though?" I ask him.
"You know me, i'm always good. Just trying to graduate already." He tells me.
"Yeah i feel you, congratulations on your football scholarship though, you deserved it." I tell him.
"It ain't nothing but thank you beautiful, i know you be checking up on me from time to time." He says while smiling. Damn there goes that beautiful ass smile.
"Ha, no nigga..Siah told me about it." I tell him. Josiah was my younger brother. He's also on the football team with Angelo.
"Yeah okay girl. But nah ya lil bro got some skills. I always tell him not to waste that talent." He tells me.
"And you shouldn't waste yours either. I be seeing you play out there you're really good." I tell him.
"Thank you beautiful, i just need that one supporter to give me some more motivation." He tells me.
"Well you have a bunch of supporters boy, go pick you one." I tell him.
"C'mon Veronica, when you gon' stop playing with me? I been wanted you since the 9th grade." He tells me.
"I'm not playing with you Angelo, you have a bunch of supporters..pick one." I tell him.
"I want you though." He tells me while looking into my eyes.
I couldn't help but stare at him too. Angelo's everything a girl would dream to have but i just dont find him attractive.
"Yo A! Fuck is you doing boy?!" One of his friends ask while coming up to our table.
"Oh shit my fault, wassup V? How you doing beautiful?" Terrell asks me. Terrell is one of Angelo's friends. He's actually one of my brothers friends too. I actually knew Terrell since i was younger because of Terrell's older brother. Terrell's older brother is my older brother's bestfriend.
"Wassup T, I'm good and you?" I ask him.
"Im good too, thanks for asking." He says while flashing his million dollar smile. I always found Terrell so attractive to me but i grew up with him, so he's more like a brother.
"My boy bothering you, 'cause i could tell his ass to stop?" Terrell asks me.
"Man, quit that tough boy act. She good." Angelo says.
For the next hour or so i was chilling with Angelo, Terrell and the rest of the football team. These guys are actually really cool. We didn't even go to class. We were having too much fun joking around and shit. School was already over, the boys had practice so i decided to go home.
"Yo V why don't you come watch us during football practice? You cool as hell ma'!" One of Angelo's friend tells me.
"I'm good but thank you. And thanks for making laugh so much guys, i hope we could chill again like this." I tell them.
"Definitely V!" One of them said and they all agreed.
I started to walk away until someone had grabbed me. I turned around and saw that it was Carlos.
"So....what you doing tomorrow night?" He asks me.
"I have to close at work tomorrow, so i probably don't want to do anything." I tell him.
"C'mon beautiful stop running from me, let me just take you out one time? That's all i ever want." He tells me.
I looked into his eyes once again. I guess one time wont hurt.
"Okay fine, just as friends though okay?" I tell him.
"Yeah beautiful whatever works for you. I gotta go though. I see you soon V!" He tells me. He couldn't stop smiling.
"Wait i have to give you my number!" I tell him.
He looks back at me and winks. I turned around smiling and shaking my head. This boy is something else.
When i got home, i was headed straight to my room until i saw my mom in the kitchen.
"Hey mommy." I tell her.
"Hi beautiful, you back from school already? I saw Carlos earlier, he was asking about you." She says while smiling at me.
"Uh huh, i'm sure he was, where's everyone at!?" I ask her.
"Girl don't sleep on his fine ass! You know he look good too! But your dads at work, Serron's doing God knows what and Josiah's at practice." She tells me. I swear this lady think she's young.
I mean she may look good but she needs to act her age, 38!
"Ma, stop talking like that c'mon." I tell her.
"Im serious V, you and Carlos would look so cute together." She tells me.
"Mommy, stop! Im out you're too much." I tell her while walking away.
Once i got to my room, i put all my stuff down and went straight to my diary.
Dear Diary,
Im not gonna keep writing the dates because, i clearly dont give a fuck. Okay that was mean right? Im sorry. Surprisingly i had a good day today. I was chilling with Angelo, Terrell and their friends. Angelo's actually not that bad. Well he never was but you know what i mean. Hes cool. I had fun with them today. Im still mad at Chloe and Sasha though. But the boys made me feel better. Sasha didnt go to school because she had to open at her job and who knows why Chloe didnt go to school today. I cant believe im actually going out with Angelo tomorrow. I mean its just as friends though so it aint nothing. But i still feel a little guilty. I feel like im doing something wrong to Carlos but i know im not. I just wish things were better between us but they wont be. I know hes fucking around with other females and i swear if i ever see a female coming out his crib its her ass. Yeah i know, hes not my boyfriend but i dont give two fucks. Hes mine whether we together or not. Soon enough he'll realize that im the only one thats always there for him. I honestly dont know what to write now, im about to find something to do.
Love, V.
