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8. james

8.james

I am worried for Russkirotof . ever since i saw him last i have been worried and i have been worried before that too. I know that i like him, really like him, but thats not only why i want to help him. He'd be good to have around, like as a friend and stuff and i want to get to know him more, but i havent stopped thinking about the night he was outside the meeting hall, drunk and disoriented. He dosent deserve that, he didnt deserve to be hit by his father, to be made to stay out there in the cold. He looks tired all of the time, and sad for that matter. I want to help . i usually will keep to myself when it comes to things like this , i'm not responsible for other people's happiness or quality of life, sure i can lend people i'm friends with some money from time to time but i know it's not my job to change anything. I guess i want to do this because it will benifit me in the end, if it does work. I will get a new friend, an ally... or even a boyfriend... i grin at the thought of that. Russkirotof turns my gay brain to mush every time i think about him, i just melt. I remember one time i was going to talk to him a few months ago and i ended up stuttering too much to get a single word out. I'm very glad i was much more reserved last time time, but deep down i was still feeling like i was going to melt, i guess i didnt really know what it was then, that weird urge to just stay with him and be with him then. But i realise now that i was just too gay to think strait, pun intended. I think the best course of action is to find out where he lives and talk to him myself, or leave anonymous gifts for him. By gifts i mean basic necessities. I cant tell mum or anyone about this though, he's a secret crush who she will not approve of. She thinks he's unstable and rude as well as uncivilised. Not a great first impression from him then. I'm curious as well, he's such a mystery to everyone and i for one want to find out more about him, what if he's like, secretly a zombie or something? To be honest he dosent look far off from one... but seriously, what if something bad is actually happening? I sigh and roll over in my bed, what am i even doing? It's 4am. I should be asleep or at least doing something productive instead of thinking about the same thing ive been thinking about for a week and a half. after a few more unsuccessful attempts to fall asleep i get up and go down to the kitchen to get something to eat and wake myself up. I prefer to caffeinate myself with energy drinks rather then coffee, who wants something bitter when you could have something refreshing, sugary and energising? Exactly, you wouldnt. I put some waffles in the toaster and trip over jack as i go to get a drink. I start to swear at him but i realise he's unconscious, although i wouldnt put it pas him to have been waiting there all night just to get someone hurt. He's got a bloody nose which has gotten all over his clothes, for a second im almost worried for him, but i remember it's jack, so i dont really care. Nevertheless, i check his pulse and make sure he is breathing, i am a doctor after all, or training at least, i cant have my brother dying on me without seeing his will and taking everything in it. I snicker at him, There's a hole near the base of the wall , perfectly skateboard sized, and would you look at that? His dogs are still tied to his skateboard. What an idiot. They arent sleigh dogs and a skateboard isnt a sleigh, i dont know what he was expecting. I drag him over to the couch so someone else wont trip over him and go and get my drink. The waffles are ready by then and i drown them with maple syrup , sprinkles and a scoop of icecream for good luck. Nothing is better then a 4000 calorie breakfast with a side of soda. Haha wow, this is honestly disgusting. I should never be allowed to make food . I'll ask about Russkirotof later, if everything else fails i'll ask leon, and if that dosent work i'll have to drive to Miss Aubrey's house and annoy her into telling me where he lives. I'll wait a bit though, im not feeling that annoying that i'll wake her up at 4:am. I finish eating my waffles and give up on waiting so i put on some proper clothes , get a flashlight and go out. Night walks are always nice , even though it is freezing. I walk for a while, enjoying the cold air on my face until i end up at leon's house. I may as well take this chance. I walk up and knock on the door. I hear dogs barking from inside, a lot of them. Maybe this wasnt such a good idea... i jump as the door opens, "oh, what are you doing here?" asks leon. I didnt really expect him to be up but whatever. "I need to know where Russkirotof lives." i say, fidgeting slightly. "Why do you need to know?..." leon asks, suspiciously ." "um... its just for a .. thing... a work thing, yea. Elis wanted me to deliver some medicine for him, cause... people are sick.. At the clinic.. And no time to do it.". Idiot , what am i even saying? He'll know something is up. I get a dismissive "mhm" from leon, but to my surprise , he waves me in and walks back inside his house. i follow him , confused. "um, whats this for? i kind of only wanted you to help me by telling me where the house is." "i am helping you" leon says absent mindlessly, opening the door to his study and starting to dig through piles and piles of paper. ".. can you just tell me?" leon hands me a bit of paper and sighs "you'll probably need a map, it's hard to find". I take the paper a bit too fast and smile awkwardly at leon , 'Uhm .. thanks..." "you do know that if his father finds you there he'll likely kill you?" leon asks. "Huh? Oh... um.. Yea , sure" . something something russkeritof's dad. thats not too bad i'll just stay out of his way , i hate him anyway. Leon nods at me, "well. Goodnight" "goodnight." i walk away and squeal as soon as im out of sight from leon. I got it. I really go it. I'm going to get to go there and see him and talk to him. I sort of feel like i'm going to throw up and laugh at the same time. I sit down and unfold the paper , it's a map of the forest , it shows a path all the way through it to russ' house which is deep in the forest. That makes sense . no one sees him because he's hidden. His house is further in the forest then ive ever been though and there's little red marks all over the area near his house, bear traps. Ive heard they can kill people , so i'll have to be careful. I have to admit that i'm actually really nervous about this, it's going to be more dangerous then i thought. I can walk to the forest from here, it'll take a while but i can do it. It's probably too early for russ to up, unlike leon i dont think he's a workaholic , but if i find the house , i can see him whenever , and it would be good if i explored the forest a bit more . i take out my flashlight and begin the long walk to Russkirotof's house.