One Together| Monsta X 8th Member

☆Episode 49

"I like you."
His words echoing in my head I try to process what Wonho just spoke out.
There is no way he meant it as friends, right?
He couldn't possibly...

"I've liked you for a long time and every second I spent with you my feelings only grew." He moves his eyes around the room then they meet with mine.

"I-" is the only thing I manage to stutter, a thousand thoughts rushing through my head, although the sound of my heart beating is louder than all of them combined. 

"I can't believe you didn't figure it out. I thought I was being very obvious." He giggles a little nervous. "Look, I don't expect an answer nor do I want to pressure you into anything. I just wanted you to know and let out what I have been hiding from you for such a long time." 

I nod not really knowing what to say.
Wonho turns his head to the floor, his disappointment is obvious.

What if I dare to let my feelings out?
What if I dare to dream?

Wouldn't it be cruel of me to confess my feelings even though Wonho and I can't be together?
What if we would be the reason ruining  Monsta X?
Our family. My only family.

"I'm sorry hyung." I say quietly, feeling the worst I ever have.

"It's... alright. Maybe I shouldn't have..." Wonho slowly stands up making sure not to look at me while doing so. "I think I'll go get some more wood."

My heart breaks into a thousand pieces. Anything I do affects my loved ones in a negative way. Why can't I make everyone happy and safe at the same time?

I don't want him to go.
Not like this. If I let him go now, I might never bring up enough courage to open up. After all, wasn't I the one ready to confess the day after we got drunk at the karaoke?
Why am I acting all selfless all of a sudden?
I'm not that good of a person.

My hand instantly reaches out and I grab Wonho's sweater. "Wait."
"I" I take a deep breath "I like you too hyung."

He doesn't react for a second and freezes in his movement. Then he turns around, a genuine smile from one ear to another on his face.

My cheeks heat up instantly "Don't tell me you never noticed." I scuff , my cheeks burning "And you're the one calling me dense."

Wonho falls into my arms as if the biggest burden has been lifted from his shoulders. The weight of hiding our feelings for years suddenly turned into the joy of our togetherness.

Never before was I so certain yet this intimidated. Not even when I had decided to run away from home. Back then I had nothing to lose but now things are different.

Not wanting to ruin the beautiful moment with my constant overthinking, I decide to let all those negative thoughts flow away. I simply let them go and focus on the here and now.
It definitely sounds easier than done but when you have someone with you who will stay no matter what you get a lot of confidence.

"Don't worry that much. You know our members only want the best for us." Wonho raises his head, his hands cupping my face.

"You know me too well, don't you?" I chuckle. He squishes my cheeks "I do. And I also know that you usually have a pessimistic approach to literally anything, soo let's try to trust the process and be hopeful that everything works out in the end."