Starting Over

Chapter 14: I'll Always Be There For You

I didn't sleep last night. I told Chase our brains are a bad thing but I don't believe they are something bad. Anymore.

All I kept thinking about last night was that damn kiss.

I didn't once think of the man who has poisoned my brain for two years. The man who caused me to become like this.

I don't know what I'm going to say to Chase when I see him.

We can't be together.

We won't work.

A knock on the door. Brings me out of thoughts. "I'll get it." Loren announces from her room.

I feel my heart start beating faster. I really hope it's not Chase.

"Hi, can I help you?" Loren asked the person at the door. Her asking the person that tells me that it's not Chase or any of the guys.

I hear voices but I can't make out what they are saying.

"Taylor some dude is in the living room for you!"

Some dude? I'm not expecting anyone.

I walk out of my room and towards the living room.

"Seth?"

"Taylor. I've missed you. I didn't get to speak to you last night before you left."

"I missed you more." I pull my baby brother into a hug.

"Hate to um ruin the sibling moment but Hayden is on the way over here. I thought I should tell you before you have to explain why we have a random dude in our dorm at 9am." Loren states

"Thanks. Seth meet me at the coffee shop on campus. I'll be there soon. Loren will you give him directions while I get ready?"

"Of course."

I go to my room and get ready to meet my brother. I've never got ready in ten minutes. There's a first time for everything.

I speed walk across campus to the coffee shop. 

Once I arrive I take the seat across from him.

"So what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be on the way back to Kentucky."

"I should but I'm worried about you."

"Seth there is nothing to worry about. I'm adjusting to college just fine."

"I know but it's coming up." I know what he's referring to. A day that haunts me.

"I'll be fine. So how's the Jersey Chaser?"

"I already told you. We broke up."

"Right, yeah. I remember."

"Taylor I'm really worried about you. Mom told me about the dreams you have. You won't tell your therapist. Why?"

"She can't know. She will want to file a lawsuit like mom and you wanted too."

"We should have." He admits

"No we shouldn't have. There's no evidence."

"There's no evidence? Seriously, Taylor? You tried to kill yourself because of what happened. If you would have walked in that court room and told the judge the pain you went through, that would have been evidence. Anyone who knew you before it happened and saw you after would have known something happened." I feel the tears start to fall out of my eyes.

"Dad didn't. Remember? I told him and he said I was acting out."

"Dad didn't mean it. You hated when any of us would hug you. We all thought you were just going through a stage."