Jax's poetry

Mental Tolls Taken

I've started smiling less
All these thoughts are in my head
I don't even want to get out of bed anymore
Every day is always a bore
Keeping to myself
Not wanting anyone else
All these thoughts won't leave me alone
And I tell myself "I wanna go home"
Even when I'm sitting in my room
I'm crying in the afternoon
At school and at home
The worst of all is when I'm alone
I keep seeing and hearing my demons
Saying I deserve all the mistreatment
I stay around longer than I should
I feel so fucking misunderstood
If only I could escape from this world
Maybe then I'll have something learned
Happiness, maturity, or lose the tricks up my sleeve
I get people to stay, it's not something I'm proud of
I just want to feel love
Even tho it's all around me
With  my friends, and my family
Yet I fail to feel it
I feel myself slowly drift
Slipping away into unconsciousness
Helps me obtain some sort of bliss
Instead of using blades
To ease my pain
I'll just sleep
And dream of the good memories