Jax's poetry

Painful Nights

I turn the music up to drown out my screams
Silently praying everyone else is having good dreams
I'll yell until my throat runs dry
It's one of the only things I can try
To keep the scars as they are
To not add anymore marks
I want to see the scarlet flowing free
These harmful thoughts won't leave me be
They possess my mind
Everyone else is so blind
They can't see the pain I put myself through
I want to see a different point of view
I'm tired of being myself
I want to be somebody else
I want life to be easier
I want to stop being a people pleaser
I want to be a different person
How long will it take before the damage worsens?
I do it all on my own
I just want to be alone
I want people to stay out
I'm tired of feeling self doubt
Leave me locked in my room
Let my painful night resume