can't escape || mattia polibio

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Julia pov

was i trying my best not to lead him on? yes i was, i tired leaving and giving clues to mattia letting him know i couldn't do a relationship, not yet

but at this moment i couldn't do anything, it's like if the words actually came out my mouth, i'll probably break him, there's something he might have on me that i might not know yet and that's what scares me, if i ever happen to leave far from this guy, i'll probably just come back to him

it's like he has me wrap around his finger where i can't escape now

"do you still don't want to eat?" mattia asked as he opened my room door, i looked up from my book where i wrote down important things

"no i'm ok" i said looking back down at my book

i wrote something down again until i felt eyes still on me, i looked back up to see mattia keeping his eyes on me, he narrowed his eyes before taking a seat in the bed

"shall we go out somewhere??" he asked making me shake my head, mattia forced a smile "are you tired" he asked

"why do you keep asking questions??" i asked mattia, he looked at me still forcing that smile place on his face before his anger actually came out

"just answer the fucking question" he yelled as i widen my eyes, what has gotten into him now

"lower your voice mattia, the boys are asleep" i quietly said remembering the fact that the boys were sleeping, mattia laughed before coming closer to me, his face inch's away from mines

"shut up" he mumbled before his eyes going back to me "why are you always acting so stubborn" he almost yelled. i got up

"what's wrong with you?" i question

"why can't you just give me a damn chance, i've been chasing you for 7 months now and you act like this? i gave u a place to live and you just act like i'm no one?" he said his eyes avoiding contact with mines

"you are no one" i accidentally said, i covered my mouth with my hands but quickly removed them after realizing i have a reason to be mad as well "i wanted nothing to do with you to begin with but you just had to follow me everywhere and take the only thing i had in my life away" i said as mattia turned to look at me

"and your the one who stayed" he snapped as i laughed

"because you had me wrap around your finger like i was a pet, i had no choice but to stay because i was scared of you" i said almost regretting saying it

"that doesn't exp-" he was cut off by the door opening

an exhausted kairi walked in, he looked from mattia to me then back at mattia, he narrowed his eyes stretching his arms out yawning

"you guys have to stop arguing this late at night" kairi said before looking around the room and setting on the small couch by the door

"wasn't my fault" i shrugged throwing myself back on the bed, mattia glair at me

"can you guys stop acting like kids" kairi complained rolling his eyes "give him a chance" kairi said looking back at me, i looked at kairi then at mattia

"i'll think about it" i said setting back up

kairi got up nodding his head as mattia walked out the room followed by kairi, i sigh throwing my head back and looking around the room, i wanted something to scream on or yell

i didn't know if i was mad or sad

the fact that i was scared of mattia or the fact that he still cared for me, whatever i did now was on me, whatever words or actions i say or do that will hurt him, i don't think i can forgive myself, his heart is warm when he wants it to be but im making it hard for him

and i didn't know who i wanted or needed now

miles or mattia 

a/n: short chapter but don't worry it's for a reason since the next two chapters are gonna be long, i have a lot on mind for this, anyways how have y'all been??