Willingly: Her Version

Chapter Seventeen

It was the day of our wedding, and these past few days I kept on contemplating about one thing.

"Just once, I want to hear you say it." I told him, and I promised myself that I really wouldn't ask him to say it again, ever. Just once. Just today.

I was disappointed as he didn't say it. What was I expecting? He left the room after pressing a kiss on my forehead. Not even on my lips.

I tried not to let the tears fall. I didn't put on too much make-up. I gave in to my tears as I took note that I'm not wearing mascara or eyeliner. Nothing would get ruined if I cry so I cried. This is supposed to be my happiest moment, the day I will get married to someone I love. Someone who can't say he loves me. Someone who wants to possess me but can't say the mere words. I checked myself. That's right. If I say those are just mere words... does it really matter that he's not saying it? What was it? Actions speak louder than words. His response every time I ask him should be better than just saying those three little words aloud. Anyone can say it, but not everyone can back it up with sweet gentle actions. I pulled myself together. He'll be waiting outside. We should get to the judge's office at the appointed time. I pressed a napkin under my eyes. It's not noticeably red, is it? I quickly retouched my make-up and I smiled at him as I meet him outside.

When we get to the part where we repeat the vows, I contented myself with the exchange of "I do". That's the same as saying he loves me, right? I wasn't expecting him to grant my wish, but he did. When he was told to kiss the bride, he let me hear him say it.

"I love you, Audrey Swanson-Moore." He was cupping my face as he said it and I might have reacted with shock. He pressed a kiss on my lips before pulling back, but I hugged him close. I might have cried more because of it. It was happy tears. I was too happy because of it. I'd say it was the best day of my life.