When loving a Thug

Chapter 4- Torrance Girl

     I'm so confused I don't know whether to forgive him or what but I know what I seen. He was just hugging and kissing the girl neck prior to me walking up. I know I seen it but after walking closer he had on a black shirt and the guy I seen all on her had on blue. Idk maybe it was just the lighting I couldn't really see anything but I still don't know. I don't wanna go through what my sisters went through. What do I do !?
*phone rings*
Me: hello
Cat: hey Hun how are you ?
Me: fine we went out for Sunday dinner together and talked.
Cat: really , wow so you back trying to get with him ?
Me: no not really but I have to go hit you later babe.

       Her question really stuck with me am I trying to get back with him. No I'm not stupid. I know I can't trust him. I think I just went to eat just because I wanted to hear what bs he was going to tell me but I can't help but think about him. I really want him but I'm scared.
Kej - knock knock , hey lady trapp
Me: don't
Kej - have you talked to him
Me- he just texted
Kej- and
Me: he really want us to work , but Idk hold up he's calling
*7 minutes later*
Hey hunny I'll be back in a hour.
"Don't do nothing I wouldn't do"
Hush lol.
His house was so clean it was shocking , he must stay with his mama.
Hmm nothing lady like around.
"See what you lurkin fo'"
Well , I was just trying to look for your mom.
"Ion stay with my mom , I stay with my cousin though he's in his room"
Oh cool
"Come here to my room "
His room was surprisingly clean too I see all these little projects , I decide to pick one up and examine it further
"Yea , I'm a welder , weird huh , a thug like me a welder. Well yea my cousin a business man and we run a welding and trucking business together , plus me rapping and stuff on top of that life's good"
I see , that's different. So like can you weld me a house ?
"Lil bae you got a lot to learn but no , but guess what I'm going to school for architecture now , so give me a couple of years and I can"
If you're so smart like this why do you , you know , sell ?
"Hold up, how tf do you know That"
I'm from the hood , I heard your name a lot after the show , I mean it's not like I care but , why.
"Look if you came to lecture me then we can cut it short now shawty"
No I'm just saying
"Come lay with me"
Laying with him felt weird I kept getting all these vibes I wanted to do things , like eew , I'm not a hoe, but him cuddling me I couldn't help but listen to his heartbeat and feel like I wanted to be with him.
" lil shawty , will you be mines , even through the bad times"
Are you asking me to be your girl ,?
" yea my bad , hold on, (he raises me to the edge of the bed gets on one knee , kisses my foot) Makcenzie will you give me the chance of showing you the world that I can show you ?"
Yes Trapp , you can.
"My name is Torrance Jayzean Walker the 3rd"
Okay Torrance , I am your girl.
"A lot comes with this , I'm not your ordinary hood nigga , I'm worst , just as long as you hold me down , I'm going to take care of you , beleee that"

Okay baby I got you.