Lost and Found

Chapter 13

I stop in my tracks at a full table of the people I called family. "Guys this is Lydia Winchester. Lydia is Elena's twin sister" Caroline introduces me so I don't have to. "This is Bonnie and Matt, oh and that's Damon and Tyler and Alaric but call him Ric. oh and I forgot my own name. I'm Caroline" Caroline points to everyone as she talks but she is acting so god damn sweet. Who gave Caroline her extra happy pills? Caroline brings over an extra chair for me to sit down while the group is looking at me dumbfounded. I sit down on the chair and take a breath. "It's really nice to meet you all. I never met my sister but meeting her friends might bring me closure. I know that I used to have a half brother Jeremy but he sadly died. I have my two brothers with me as we will be in town for a few days on a case." I start to explain.

I explain who Dean and Sam are to Damon and Ric. I explain my life story which I have to make up on the spot. This is easier than I thought. Being around the people who I used to hang out every day with feels just like normal. But it isn't. To them I'm Elena's sister but to me it's like being back home. "What's it like being an FBI agent?" Bonnie questions. "It can be scary but at the end of the day we save lives" I answer truthfully. "You're just like her. Looks and things you say. If Elena knew she had a sister then she would have never let you go" Ric talks of me so specially. Damon hasn't said a word to me but only gotten under my skin. He has kept his eye on me this entire time. Does he really know it's me. "I'm going outside for a minute I'll be back" I softly excuse myself. I walk past Sam and Dean who look really bored and wink at them as well as nothing thank you.

The fresh air hits me as I open the door and look out to the street. "Sorry to bug you Lydia but I was hoping we could talk" Shit I think Damon knows who I really am. I turn around to face Damon and smile. "What can I do for you Damon?" I act as if I am a little girl. Damon doesn't say anything he just steps closer. He steps again. He puts his hand to cup my cheek. I look him in the eyes to remember how I could look into his eyes and not look away. I am not in love with Damon anymore. Nor do I have feelings for him anymore. In one single blink Damon's lip as are on mine but I don't pull away. I am not Elena so would Lydia pull away or what. I quickly pull away feeling uncomfortable. "You can't do that" I blast at him. "Why?" He slurs in his bad boy way. "Because I am not my sister and she is never coming back so you don't get to take advantage of me" I yell at him. I storm past Damon and back inside.

"We need to go now!" I firmly say to the two brothers that really aren't my brothers. Dean and Sam hurry out of the booth with their jackets in their hands and catch up to me who is running back out the door.

I pull at the door handle as we get in the car as Dean opens it slowly. When Dean opens the car I throw myself in and shut the door with a slam. "Elena don't break the doors on Baby" Dean shouts at me. "Just drive Dean" I yell back. Dean drives just like he is told but he just drives forward. "What happened Elena?" Sam worries. "Damon kissed me, I think he figured it out when he kissed me that it's me" I let out. "Shit" both brothers curse. "We just need to lay low now, it's better if no one knows you're alive" Dean leads. "Agreed, Dean go to the hotel on the corner of the Mystic Falls" I instruct. If Damon knows then what will happen? "I'm sorry he just kissed me and it just happened so fast" I ramble. "It's okay Elena, you couldn't help his actions" Sam reasons. "Well you are in black skinny jeans with a leather jacket and your shirt is unbuttoned a bit. No wonder he kissed you" Dean flatters me. Sam just looks at me and rolls his eyes. "I'll take that as a compliment" I laugh off.

"Ah guys there is another death" Sam mutters. It's only been a couple of hours. "I'll change, you drive Dean" I groan. Just like before I change into my uniform as Dean takes sharp turns almost making me hit my head on the seat. "What do we know?" I question as I slip on another shoe. "Female, death at Mystic Falls high. Teacher that's all I have got so far" Sam lets out. Two females, two places significant to me. The first female was 16, and this is a teacher but what is the next pattern. I could be wrong about this pattern and I don't want to say anything yet but what if I'm right. "Have they found me?" I whisper under my breath. Has being with Sam and Dean already starting to come to an end?

"I honestly don't know how I graduated, I missed so much school" I crack out laughing as I get out of the car and walk towards the doors of the school. I look over to the corner as I always do to see the same orange hair guys from Wickery bridge. Then he's gone before I can look again"At least you weren't like us" Dean debates. Sam and Dean never really stayed at a school long enough to be friends with anyone. Just a few days then they would move on. Sam got more of the school life, he did go to college so there's that. I open the big black doors to walk straight over to the display cabinet. "Oh my god" I shudder as right in the middle of the cabinet is a memorial thing for me. Cheerleading photos, me Bonnie and Caroline. "You meant something to this town" Dean puts his hand on my shoulder with his kind words. "That girl died a long time ago" I answer in return and continue to walk forward.

As I walk forward bloody hand prints are dragged on the wall. The smell of blood gets stronger and stronger. Then it stops. The real FBI agents and police department are gathered around a locker. I look at the number on top of the locker. It was my locker I had in high school. It's my locker. Sam and Dean push and shove past me and the other people. Silence. "Dean move" I try to push my way through the brothers. They only push me away. I knock under their legs to make them hunch over. Now I can get through.

Message in blood. So much blood. You won't be safe for long EG the message reads on my locker. EG has to be me. Elena Gilbert. The deaths are because of me. Not just one death but two. Now three in total. The death I now stand horrified at is a mother carrying her unborn child. There is too much blood. "I'm going to be sick" I cup my hand over my mouth and rush into the bathrooms around the corner not looking back at the crime scene.

I hold back my hair as the tears and vomit flow out. My hair is taken out of my grip and my back is now getting rubbed. "Let it out Lena" Dean. I start to dry reach before vomiting again. I put the toilet seat down and go over to the sink. I clean my mouth and throw water on my face. My makeup is smudged and washed all over my face. "Lena" before Dean can get another word out I collapse into his chest. Dean's arms wrap around me as my sobs and tears come out. The sound of the bathroom door opens and closes. Sam. "The deaths are directed at me, first was Wickery bridge where I almost died, this one at the school I went to and that was my locker the message was written on. Oh and I'm EG but the death I don't even know how he could've known that" I hesitantly ramble out. "I got the first part and Dean and I did a search for missing people and there is this one guy so we think possession is involved. But what do you mean how could have been known and who's he" Sam questions carefully. "Just get me out of here and I'll explain" I request as the tears now become dry. As Sam opens the door Dean tucks me under his wing so I can't see the blood. Sam being in front covers any sight of the scene up for me until we reach the front door. I don't want to explain to them. Honestly right now I want to go to the place I called home. "Dean I think you forgot your badge,pass me your keys so I can warm Baby up" I lie. Dean tosses me his keys and starts to return to the doors. Sam isn't in the car and still is a few feet in front of me with his back turned to me. Perfect. I throw myself into the front seat and close the door. I put the keys in and out the car into gear. With the foot on pedal "ELENA" I rush away from the sound of my name being shouted.

I know I shouldn't have driven off but I need to be alone right now. I park Baby out front my old house and get out of the car making sure I haven't made a scratch. Dean would kill me if Baby got hurt. I take my pick locking tool out of my pocket that Sam gave me and open up my door. The outside is the same but what about the inside? I close my front door with the sound of a click. I look to my right to see the same photo of me and Jeremy. I look around the front of the house and walk into the kitchen living room area. It's all in place. Nothing has changed. Not one single thing. I turn back around and head towards the stairs. Putting a foot in front of another I walk up the stairs to Jeremy and I's room as well as the guest bedroom. I walk into my brother's room to see everything how he left it . A single slides down my cheek. I go over to his desk and open up his sketchbook. He really was a good drawer. I run my fingers over the lines of his artwork but close his book once I'm done. I enter Jeremy's bedroom and enter mine. Again everything is the same. I slip off my shoes and crawl onto my bed. I lay here. Just laying looking around at my room. The place I called home for my entire life. I had many sleepovers with Caroline and Bonnie in this room, I would meet Jeremy halfway in the bathroom. I lay here with no thoughts, just emptiness. I'm just going to close my eyes and lay here. Just to be peaceful for once.