Lost and Found

Chapter 14

Dean Pov

"Where would she go Sam! This place might be small but in her eyes it's large enough to hide away" I shout with anger. I'm not angry at Elena, I'm annoyed that she took my car. I fell for her trick. "She isn't hiding Dean, she was upset and miserable. So she's obviously gone somewhere where she feels safe and at ease" Sam talks as if he has lived inside a female his age. "And where would that be?" I yelled again. Now it makes sense. A place at ease and safe. "Her house" I sigh at Sam feeling kinda dumb. "Looks like we are walking" Sam states the obvious. Why did Elena just bolt? "We are going to catch this son of a bitch and I'm going to slice his head off or burn the shit out of him" I grit through my teeth. "Dean the son a bitch is an Adze, I texted Cass just before Elena took off" Sam fesses. "Well then this Adze will see its death soon" I confirm.

What are we going to have to do to make sure Elena is going to stay safe!?

Elena Pov

I woke up an hour ago but haven't moved a muscle. I'm still just laying here not moving. Anyone could walk through that door and I won't move. If this is where it ends then so be it. At least I could die in my own home. I'm just staring towards my cupboard. From downstairs I hear the sound of my door open but yet I don't move. I just stay laying here. No need to move. There isn't just a single person here. It's just Sam and Dean. I don't call out to them or make a sound, I just stay like I am. Even there they figure as they walk through my door I don't look at them. Dean takes a seat on my bed so I sit up. Sam sits on the opposite side and they both kick off their shoes. "I'm sorry for stealing Baby and taking off like that" I apologise knowing it was wrong. "I just couldn't get the picture of that woman out of my head" I muffle as I speak. I can barely make eye contact with Sam and Dean but they understand. "What's going on Lena. You've seen dead bodies and I get that one was a bit more gross but there was more to your look in your eyes?" Dean asks in a serious tone. He's not being mean he's just worried I guess. I look over to my window and look back at the two brothers. "I've always wanted children of my own but now the thought of carrying a child after what I did scares me" I stutter as I start. Dean looks at me puzzledly while Sam is as confused as Dean. "Elena what are you saying, did you kill a child?" Sam looks at me sadly but scared. "I killed my own child" the tears start to spill out of my eyes. "I was pregnant with a vampire child" I hold back the tears as I take a heavy but broken breath. "They got a witch to impregnate me with one of the vampire's. I was pregnant for three months and none of them knew so they thought the spell never worked but I did. I killed the child with pills they gave me to keep me healthy." The tears fall as the memories start to flood in. Dean and Sam are looking at me startled at speechlessness. "Seeing that woman and that much blood of an unborn child and her own blood brought back too much. Cass saw into my mind that day we got our memories back and he saw what happened with the baby" I exclaimed finishing what I was explaining. Dean places his hand on mine while Sam pulls me into his chest. I still feel horrible for killing a child, even if it wasn't human. "It was a vampire Elena not a human you were carrying" Dean words come out harsher than what I think he expected them to be. "You don't think I knew that Dean" I sharply argue back. "I get that you were still carrying a being but it wasn't human so I don't understand why you're so upset about it" my eyes sink as well as my stomach. Does Dean really know me? I get up from my bed and look directly at Dean. "I still killed it Dean! It could've grown up to be good but I didn't even give it a chance to be good" I shout. Sam comes over to me and settles me down but I push him away.

"Elena you don't if it could've been good, and why would you want to keep a child of one of the people who hurt you?!" Dean snarls. "Because with my life that might've been my only shot of having children of my own" I admit.

"Sam, can you give us a minute?" I bluntly ask. I watch as Sam closes my door on his way out but my eyes don't move from looking at Dean.

"That wasn't and won't be your last chance at children, don't say that Lena" Dean growls. I could really do with some strong ass bourbon right now. "My life could end tomorrow so you don't know that Dean, I'm always going to be on the run from something. When am I going to get the time to settle down and meet a guy oh and have a family!" I shout, running my hands through my hair. "Is this really what you think your life is going to be like, because I think it's pathetic. Once Sam and I put an end to whatever is controlling the demons after you, we will let you free or you can stay with us but you shouldn't have this life Sam and I do. I won't let you live like this" My eyes are glaring and I'm fuming with anger. "You don't get to decide that Dean! Maybe I want the hunting life; have you ever thought of that?" I question. Dean looks at me with his eyes sharp and his lip quivering in fear. "Miranda and Grayson wouldn't want you to have this life, you know it. Do you have a death wish now? Because the Elena I once knew didn't like putting herself in danger to destroy everything" Dean's words come out sharper than knives. "Get out Dean. You have no right to speak of my parents like that so GET OUT" I scream. I stump over to the door and hold it wide open for him. Dean madly stomps over and I slam the door on his way out. "FUCK" I scream as I sit myself up against my wall.

Sam pov

The sound of Elena's door slamming makes me jump. A door slam when Dean is leaving a room normally means nothing good. My brother can be a dick at times. Sometimes more than usual. "Seriously Dean, what did you do?" I roll my eyes as I ask my hot tempered brother what he did wrong. Dean really doesn't know how to communicate with women. Let alone someone like Elena. "I may have pissed her off but she just erh, no I need a drink" Dean blabers before heading to the front door and out he goes. Thanks a lot bro, leaving me to clean up your mess. I take a final glance at the photo of Elena with Jeremy and walk up the stairs to Elena's room.

"Go away Dean" Elena snarls behind her closed door. "Not Dean," I answered back. I twist the door knob open to see a brooding angered Elena sitting in the corner of her room near the window. Elena doesn't look at me, she just sits there. I sit in her arm chair and wait for her to start the conversation. "He makes me so mad sometimes. I get that the child was a demon but still it was my child and I killed it" her voice is pure anger but in pain. "Dean only said those things because he cares about you and he hated what those vampires did to you. I hate it too but unlike Dean I see why you feel the way you do" I speak. Elena looks towards my way and smiles. "Dean is right though in a way. I'll move on from it but one thing I know for sure is that I am not leaving you two again" she isn't lying. So strict and stern. "I wouldn't let Dean force you out unless you wanted to leave" I make myself as clear as I can. Elena gets up from her seat and sits on my lap just like she used to do when she was little. "Thanks Sammy".