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CHAPTER 45

Trouble

I ran towards the person I saw just now. That figure was so familiar. I was so near him so I grabbed the hem of his shirt.

I was taken a back when I saw his face. It was just so impossible. He died, he died 2 years ago. How come he's standing in front of me now?

"Trouble, I can explain" I don't know what to say. I was speechless. Things keep coming in my head. Conclusions and everything, I'm trying to figure out how.

"Trouble!" My mind is going crazy. Is this really true? That can't be! It's impossible. "Trouble calm down!"

"Who are you?!"

"It's me, Zyrus!" Still, it can't be "No, Zyrus is dead! Stop playing with me!" I was trembling. "It's me Trouble. I'll explain, but not now"

"I'm sorry" He walked away from me. I don't know what I'm supposed to feel.

"Trouble? What happened to you?" I heard Rafael's voice in front of me. I also don't know what should I tell him. Everything is confusing me.

"Let's go back" I said. My head hurts so bad.

"Trouble? What happened?" He asked again but I didn't glanced at him. I'm too tired to. ""Go to sleep Raf." I know he's also confused but, I'm not really in the mood to explain right now.

I just want some rest.

"But-" Hinilot ko ang sintido ko at pumunta sa may gilid ng kama "I said go to sleep" He was shocked by the way I'm acted but he didn't say anything and just layed beside me.

We were too far away from each other. I want to hug him but my heart hurts so bad, I couldn't move.

Im sorry Raf.

...

I woke up at 3 am in the morning. I kissed Rafael's forehead before I went out for a jog. This somehow relaxed me.

"Trouble" I flinched when I heard that familiar voice.  "Zyrus?" The feeling I wanted to forget for the past two years came back.

The feeling of longing.

I shouldn't be like this. What will Attkinson think of me? He will hate me if he knew that someone he trusted, longs for someone who's been dead since 2 years ago.

"I'm here to ease your confusion Trouble, let's go to a nearby caffe" Just as he said, we went to a nearby caffe but I immediately saw Attkinson standing in front of it.

"Not here" I grabbed him. "Where are we going Trouble?" I didn't mind him and went to the nearby park instead.

"Now, explain" I said. I wanted everything to end this instant. I'm longing for him but I will be yearning for Attkinson if we have a misunderstanding.

"I don't know where to start--"

"Start from the beginning. I have so many questions that needs answers Zyrus. Para matapos nato." He looked at me in sadness.

"Tell me, Trouble. Have all your feelings for me faded?"

"You were dead for 2 years, no, you pretended to be dead. You intentionally pretended to be dead! For what?!"

"2 years Zyrus, 2 motherfcking years. You left without a trace and days later, I found out you were dead. I was there! Standing when they buried you!" I exclaimed. There's just so many emotions and I feel like I'm gonna burst.

"The only thing I want is an explanation and we're done" 

"I was forced by my parents to break up with you and marry this girl. We had a child and she's one year old now," He paused. Then why did he bother showing his face in front of me?

"I tried to forget you Trouble, but I can't. So I visited you, every single day for half a year. I stopped months ago when I saw you with him. You look so happy together and I realized, that what I'm doing right now is useless 'cause I know that we won't be the same"

"Then why are you here now?" I asked, maintaining my stone cold looks. "My wife and my daughter died the day I last visited you"

"Still, that doesn't answer my question"

"I came here because I have no one else. Your the only one I have and I might be selfish to ask you this but, leave him and come back to me." My forehead creased.

"What?! Do you hear what you were saying just now? Leave Rafael and come back to you? Are you serious?"

"So that was his name? It's angelic. Almost the same name as my daughter. And yes, I'm serious, leave him."  I burst in anger. "No, I have no reason to leave him"

"Please Trouble, I'm begging you" I didn't listen to himand stood up to walk away from him. "Please" He hugged me from behind.

"If you dont, I'll tell tita about this" I took a deep breath and  slipped on his arms "I already cut ties with my parents. They don't have any rights to controll my life anymore"

"Really? Don't forget what your parents did to us. Before we even broke up, you already cut your ties with them but they still managed to tear us apart. And thats what they'll do to your Rafael once they found out" I was taken a back.

"They will never going to let you be happy unless you let them control you. If you go with me, I'll give you everything. No one will stop us on fulfilling our broken promises if you just give us both a chance--"

"Stop, just stop. I will never change my decisions. You and I are already over. We should just move on and continue our lives separately" My decisions were final.

"I'm going to get you back Trouble, I promise" I didn't listen to a word he was saying and went back.

I went home to get some sleep "Did you forget about me?" I flinched when I heard someone crying on my back. My heart ached when Attkinson's tears fell on my shoulder.

I'm sorry, but I can't face you right now.