Dernière Danse [Jikook]

39

Deep End - Ruelle

The performance ended just as fast as it started, and it felt more like it breezed through Jimin's eyes rather than enjoying the routine like how he usually does.

However this time, he didn't feel anything while he danced or did the steps he has memorized by heart after he continuously practiced it to perfection; He just skated and performed, that's it.

The reason more so being like this is because he knew if he were to let a slip of emotions out, just a tiny bit of more facial expression to reveal an oozing sentimentality to the music, than he would possible throw a fit out there on the ice. The song, the situation that happened earlier, everything was just a massive spiral of bubbling emotions that he couldn't control.

But he held it in together, just as the song ended.

Don't get him wrong, he's not hurt by what Jeongguk told Namjoon and for that being the reason why he's like a ticking bomb right now; As if he gets hurts by shit like that easily.

He's just so fucking annoyed.

Never did he ask Jeongguk to copy his habits or his life style! Or for him to be influenced by it. He never begged him to stay in the program or even tried to toil with his head! It's been the total opposite since Jimin always looks for every corner to escape from him to avoid some type of deep affection since the beginning, until towards the end of repaying him back.

And the only time he showed something, by letting Jeongguk kiss him and touch him despite his utter anxiety to that contact 1 this shit back fires right back to his face like a damn slap.

And then he's the one to get the blame for shit.

This is why he doesn't trust people!

They're all so damn sensitive!

There was only one person who wouldn't turn his back to him, that made Jimin not think that he was a damn nuisance to someone..... But he had to let him go, and no matter what he does now Jimin can't get him back.

And it's better off that way.

He's just tired of this.....

If Jeongguk's being irresponsible, then take the blame like a decent person! If they had something going on, Jeongguk doesn't need to be telling Namjoon details or even excuses about it! It's none of his business!

Fuck! Jeongguk needs a damn spine!

Jimin storms into his dressing room, ice skates in hand, and the second he stepped through the door the skate is abruptly being thrown and slammed to the mirror; shattering it to pieces.

His hands are itching. To throw or hit something. To grip his hair and possibly rip his head off! Body erupting in rage, Jimin shoves everything off the dresser to the ground. Chair is being thrown, wall is kicked, clothes are being torn and ripped apart on the floor.

He's a mess.

A familiar mess that he can't control.

Why did he let his guard down? Why?

Shit, even Jimin is even learning sign language from the whole team - yes the whole team - just for him! After practice he would meet up with some of the teammates at random places, studying hard until he had it engraved in his head. Obviously he won't learn just in three weeks, but he can distinguish things now by how much effort he's putting into this.