I got out of the bed knowing she was gonna leave me killed me so i had to get away from her at the moment. I got out and went to the bathroom and thats where the tears started to spill over. I couldnt hold them back anymore it was just to much. I turnes the shower on so she couldn't hear anything. I reached under the sink and pulled out a box that held everything i couldnt live with out. I opened it and pulled out a razor i slowly drug it across my arm soon 1 cut became 20. God why am i so stupid i asked my self over ajd over as i watched the blood trickle down my arm. I started to sing mortitians daughter to sooth my self but it made everything worst. I desited to jump in the shower i mean it was on why not i pulled my clothes off and jumped in. I cringed as the water touched the new cuts but i liked the pain i felt like i was alive like i was human again.
I was still singing mortitians daughter in the shower when i heard the door close. I knew she had left. I wasnt even able to say goodbye tears threated to spill over again and i let them as i got out of the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist and walked out to find all of her stuff gone. I sat on the bed and sobbed till i could sob no more. I looked around when i found a letter on the dresser i slowly walked to get it and open it.
"Ashley...i wanted to say goodbye personally but i knew if i did i would stay and i had to leave....I just want you to know i love you and nothing will ever change that but i cant risk you getting hurt...while writing this i couldnt help but cry and i just want you to know i will miss you so dearly and there wont be a minute you wont go unthought of....Ash every moment we spent together gave me the best exsperiance of my life and i want you to know you the best thing that ever happend to me and you made me realize that love can conquer everything....exsept....this..... I had to leave because i loved you and you loved me and i knew that one day you would die for me and when my step dad came back that was very obvious.....Ashley dont ever think your not good enough for anyone because you are and i want you to know that its okay it really is going to be okay....your going to meet some really nice girl and your going to fall in love with her and get married and have little ashleya running amuck and i want you too please dont let me hold you back...please do this for me.....i love you so much but this is goodbye...please look after Portia. Goodbye my outlaw
LOVE YOUR FALLEN ANGEL...SKYLAR.
I finished reading and broke down i screamed at the top of my lungs because it felt like a peice of my heart had fallen out and was smashes and couldnt be put back together...i loved her so much and she had my heart and now its on the ground shattered onto a million peices i screamed even more as tears fell one after the other. This couldjt be she just left i didnt even get to kiss her one last time....just one last time is all i asked for. I heard a small knock on the door as it opened. It was Portia you can tell she was crying to.
"GO AWAY PORTIA I DONT WANT TO SEE ANYONE" i screamed through my sobs. She didnt listen she came over to me and her arms encircled me and we both cried.
"I dont get it how could she just leave didnt she know i loved her tbat we all loved her and she just left us." I said into her shoulder
"I dont know ash but she just knows when she needs to go....she loved you to you know...she came and said bye in tears as she told us why she was leaving....i dont know Ash but i know it hurts...belive me i know" she said rubbing my back trying to calm me down it didnt work i just cried more
"Ill be back" she said to me i sat up got in sweat pants and layed on the bex cluching her letter crying into it.
"Ashley....hey bud i know this sucks i know but she told me there was somthing she left out of her letter that she wants me to tell you....she said...and one more thing Ashley i love you more than i could ever scream..please dont hurt your self i cant live with my self if i made you do that....goodbye outlaw...that what she said ash..." Cc said
"Its to late" i said lifting my arm to his viewing level. I cried even more now knowing i did somthing i shouldnt have because she didnt want me to.
"Why me C why cant i be happy like andy or jinxx or you....why cant i just be happy" i sobbed CC wiped my tears away
"I dont know bud but think atleast you were happy for a little bit ans thats what counts"he said
"I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and thrown on the ground and stomped on till it was shattered she was my everything my love my heart the reason i breath and walk...she was my world and now shes gone" i screames at first but got really quiet and whispered the end because i couldn't bear to hear my self say it. CC looked at me and left. I was left alone...i didnt know what to do with my self. I was pathetic and looked like i got hit by a bus...i needed someone. I grabbed my phone and texted the one person i shouldnt have but i did. And she replyed...
"Be there in a sec babe...knew you would want me back ;) " and thats when i did what i shouldnt have.... i know now theres a special place in hell for me after what im about to do.
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A/N OKAY GUYS LAST CHAPTER WOOP I CRIED WHILE WRITING THIS BUT HOPE YOU LIKE IT...ILL UPDATE TOMORROW FOR WHAT THE SEQUELS NAME IS SO ENJOY THIS AND HOPE U READ THE SEQUEL L...DONT FORGET TO VOTE. LOVE YOU
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Fanfictiona young girl named Skylar has been depressed and never had anyone to talk to. until she met a guy named Ashley he's so sweet but he has a reputation of breaking girls hearts what should she do. she finally talks to him when she goes to a concert wit...
