Secrets and Misery

TWENTY

CHAPTER 20

"I have a question," said Fred. "And it's for Elle."

All the guys went silent and looked at Fred then at me. I didn't know what it could be about, or why he had chosen to ask me anything. All I could do was listen to what he had to say. "Alright, tell me."

"I want to know, who was the ever kiss you ever had? And would u want to kiss them again?" Fred had this huge grin on his face and I knew exactly what he wanted to hear. However I couldn't give it to him, I couldn't let him know he was the best kiss I've had and the idea of kissing him again had crossed my mind a few times. At the same time, I was pretty drunk at that point so I couldn't lie either. So my only choice was to drink.

"Pass me the bottle."

Everyone began complaining, saying I was a coward and that it was an easy question. I brushed them off and had another sip of the brandy.

"It must be really embarrassing if u don't wanna say... " Fred suggested.

"Maybe I would like to protect my privacy from you weirdos." I spoke. "Ok who's next?"

The game went on for a few more rounds until the brandy was completely gone.

Lee was passed out on his bed and George had went out to help Angie down the stairs, I know I could've done that but I knew both of them wanted it that way more. So it was just me and Fred left with an empty bottle between the two of us.

The room was silent and had been silent for a long time so I took it as a signal to go to bed myself. As I stood up Fred shifted and opened his mouth. "You'll admit it one day."

I stopped walking, turned around and looked at him. He was in the same place as before, but standing. "Admit what?"

"That I'm the best kiss you ever had. And... you want to kiss me again, you can't stop thinking about it." He slowly took steps toward me, and when he finished talking he was no further than thirty centimetres away from me.

"You're so full of yourself." I started turning around but he placed his body in my way.

"You weren't thinking that when u kissed me this summer."

"From what i recall, you kissed me."

He chuckled. "That's simply ridiculous. But if you want me to kiss you, you can just say that Ellie. No need for all this lying."

"That's not what I said-"

"But it is what you were thinking." His body was brushing against mine, leaving a lingering feeling on every particle that had been touched.

I looked away confused "I don't understand you."

His hand moved and grabbed my chin to make me look at him. "What don't you get? I'm extremely handsome and you can't get your eyes off me."

"No, that's not it. I think it really kills you that I don't want you as much as you want me." My back was against the wall and my hands were on his chest, i could feel his heart pounding.

He moved his face close to mine and I could feel his breath as he spoke. "I think that you know that that's wrong." His free hand moved to my hips, my skin was burning to his touch.

"I know that i never want to kiss you again." Something in what i said made his eyes become darker. His hand that was on my chin now layer on my throat.

"Why don't you shut up."

"Why don't you make me."

Before I could blink his lips were on mine. Both of his hands were grabbing my face and I wasn't making any effort to pull away. Why? Why did I like this? His lips tasted like cinnamon against mine.

His hands fell to my hips and he moved me closer to him, my hands were in his hair and I was consumed by the idea of him.

Suddenly, a big snore could be heard from Lee's bed, we both pulled away from the fear of being caught.

"I'm leaving now" I said looking away from him.

"Wait," he grabbed my wrist "you're so attracted to me and it shows, don't go thinking i feel the same because of this little stunt you pulled." He winked and let me go.

I quickly got to my bedroom, thankfully the girls were asleep and I could go to bed peacefully without anyone asking questions I didn't have clear answers for. All I knew was that I was truly confused.