Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
”خود ہی باعثِ تکلیف ہم اپنے لئے محسن نہ ہم ہوتے, نہ دل ہوتا نہ دل آزادیاں ہوتی“
*****
It was her first day at her job. She was ready for this but at the same time she missed her cafe. She missed it all. She felt like a big fool as she thought how the things back fired on her so badly. In all this chaos of digging a hole for him, she was in one herself. Nano wasn't ready to move out with her and Rumi was angry at her as well. She messed up real bad this time. And she blamed no one but him for that.
She went ahead to get her bag from the couch when she saw his jacket lying there. The one that warmed her in that dreadful cold of that gloomy night. She let her fingers graze slightly on the warm fabric of his jacket that held a soothing scent she was now familiar with. The memories of the night swirled around her making her senses numb as the bittersweet of the storm had left some bits of it drilled in her soul. She knew she wouldn't be able to forget that night with him ever. She closed her eyes firmly at the mess and jumble her life has been lately.
The first day at work went pretty well. But there was something messing with her head constantly. Her routine wasn't the same anymore. It wasn't hard for her to adapt this but she missed the times she worked at her own cafe. But there was nothing she could do now. Only if she could go back..
////
Books were her best escape from the daunting reality she lived in. She needed another escape today. Badly. She visited a book store in town to get something to read since she had a lot of spare time now. She missed her cafe like crazy but she knew she had to just adjust to this new pattern of life. She still wanted to get out of the city asap, she would've ran away the day she saw him but Nano held her back, she was her weak point there.
After checking out some books in the store she walked inside the extended library inside the shop. The library was all calm and everybody minded their own business there, she chose some of the books for herself and went to this american looking pretty librarian who she thought she probably had seen somewhere. She went ahead for issuing the books she held in her hands. Zimal finally recognized the girl. It was the same girl she saw Zayan with in the basement of his apartment. His girlfriend? She was beautiful, Zimal realized as she talked to her. The girl excused herself to attend a call.
"Hello?" She whispered through the call.
"Babe I'm fine, you're over reacting now!" She giggled a little as she said that to her boyfriend maybe.
Her boyfriend? Zayan? Zimal thought as she uncomfortably shifted her gaze to those books laying on the desk.
"No, can't come right now but I'll come home at night."
