A Christian Teenager

A year later

(That's me in the picture lol)
Alright so now I'm like 15, sorry I haven't written much lately at all.
I just feel like I'm not a good writer, and I'm not even a good Christian.

An update in my life.
You guys know that guy I wrote about? Yeah well I moved on from him but he was so childish back when I liked him, he disrespected me, ignored me, and rejected me so that's when I knew I was not gonna tolerate to be treated this way and I was done waiting on him.

This year he's much more mature and he's sympathetic and funny, he's a great guy now. We work together in the teenage drama for church. Here I'll tell you the little silliness in our relationship.

Yesterday (Monday, March 2) we were in rehearsal and we were doing the part of when I drink the water Jesus made for me. (he's Jesus in this act) and I was being silly and said "mm refreshing" and he was like "oh yeah it's "Fiji" he's so funny.

But you see girls the things you want won't always turn out the way you planned, God's got a better idea just like he didn't allow this guy be a big part in my life, I know there's someone out there better for me. Don't be upset over what you get. Yeah like in guys you will feel really sad at first when you realized you don't actually get to be with them, and yeah you will miss them but here's the thing princess, he will see your happiness and he might regret it but maybe it's just not meant to happen.

Not meant to be.

Later on you might stumble upon a situation where wrong is controlling you, as of right now I am being a terrible Christian, I don't think I should even call myself a Christian, but I do believe in Jesus, and I love him. He is my savior.
I talk to God, every night just clearing up my thoughts and letting him know I feel wrong about the things I do.

I always say "God will forgive, don't worry about it" yeah but I don't wanna think that way anymore, I don't wanna take what I could be having with God as in a special relationship for granted, but all my mistakes and sins kinda make me feel like, nope I'm not even worth it.

You know what, you are better than me, yeah you reading this. You have to do what I struggle with before it gets worse. Talk to God right now, tell him you need him, and that you're ready for your relationship with him to grow. Don't be like me, I am a caterpillar, but you, in that cacoon, you will become a butterfly sooner than I will. Go ahead... Fly.