A Christian Teenager

Mario? More like gone. And Joey, thanks alot.

(October 2014)
Mario, cute little beauty marks face Mario. This is what he said to the girl offending my writing. "Hey, I could read that, I write worse." I honestly loved him very much at that moment. Our last moment.
Last you ask yourself? Well he did after all move back to Kansas. He probably made the "take me home" little trick with his sparkly shoes.
Anyways let's talk about Joey.

Joey as you may know, was my best guy friend. I'll add the fact that before he was my best friend he was my ex boyfriend. Weird? Yes. Healthy? Not completely. An ex always wants the worst for you. Well maybe not ALL, but mine did. A little after the first month of freshmen year, he began distancing himself from me, from our beautiful unhealthy friendship.

Us girls tend to gush about our crushes to our closest friends quite often. He was my closest friend at that time. My mistake since he was also an ex lover.
He held this grudge for me since I broke his heart. I was just a 14 year old naive girl that had no idea whatsoever she wanted out of a relationship. So I obviously broke up with him after only one month of dating, another reason was because I felt extremely insecure and pressured into having to kiss him and all those things couples do.

He shouldn't hold a grudge on something that had happened such a long time ago.

(November 2014)
So as the months went by and he forgot to wish me a happy birthday, I had it.
I finally realized he wanted nothing to do with me. I asked him why he didn't say happy birthday, he replied with "you ain't even fam no more" which means that we weren't close anymore. Therefore he gave up on our friendship.

(December 2014)
I was facing some scary problems.
I was getting hacked, threatened, and random numbers kept texting me knowing so much about me it was scary, but they changed numbers all the time. That time I needed him the most and he wasn't there for me anymore.
But we'll get into that section of my life later.

(April 2015)
So back to Joey, he and I had a heated argument through messages. Yes messages because I was too afraid of facing him. He cursed me out and he humiliated me beyond belief. He made fun of me not having my first kiss yet. He made me feel like a bad person. But in reality, holding a grudge on someone so young for such reason he didn't want to understand was bad enough, he was the bad person. He had so much wrath, he wanted me to feel like trash. Which worked.

I had felt so bad for him, but that was April 2015. I began to live without him and I knew I could. I was happy, I really did think I needed him for a while. I wanted him back in my life for my selfish needs. I wanted a male perspective with problems and people I faced. But guys didn't really want to befriend me, they wanted more but I was still crushing on Joey.

On October 3rd, 2015: Joey apologized to me for cursing and offending me. He told me I probably didn't deserve that. I gained his trust back slowly after, but he also wanted to talk to me more than friends. I just wasn't ready, but I didn't want to lose him again. So we would only talk at night when we were sad together in crisis. I remember him telling me about these girls in his life as I told him about my summer love.
Our love lives were pretty complicated, that's why it was easy to share with each-other. It was always easy to share anything with him honestly.

That year, he didn't forget to say happy birthday, he was one of the first actually, ( I turned 16 )but I confronted him about him leaving me for too long. We fought and I told him that I was tired of losing people in my life, that if he was gonna stay to let me know.

But he didn't stay.

I continued my life. I honestly knew how to live without him, I knew I could I was just so stuck on stupid thinking he was the best person ever. But as always, he came back, told me he still wanted to be in my life. But he had a plan. I was dumb enough to let him back into it.

(December)
One night, I felt sad, lonely and like I needed to talk to someone. I needed rebound because I was still crazy for my previous summer love. I asked my boy Joey if he was up.
He said "yes beautiful what's up?" And we began talking. This time like actually talking. Flirting talking, sweet talking, how ever you call it.

He wanted to get back with me.
I still obviously wasn't ready.
He informed me of his feelings towards me. His exact words were,"Marla, all I honestly want to do is have something serious. You been the love of my life since middle school. If I didn't why would I keep trying? You're always on my mind. I think you're one of the most beautiful girls I know." Yeah of course I melted, and yes I believed every single one of those words.

Little did I know his plan was still in action.

We acted like foolish teens in a new found romantic relationship. We weren't dating, it was more of those 'we're almost dating' kinda stuff.
He called me babe and I would dedicate songs to him. He would compliment me and ask me about my day. He made me feel like he cared.

Around Christmas time, I was out of the country when I was informed that my 'bestfriend' at the time had a thing with Joey, back in freshmen year, back when my wounds were still healing and I still had a crush on him. She literally knew about my crush on him freshmen year, she snitched about him always trying to flirt with her, him always being the only one. She said she never showed love back.

This 'bestfriend' betrayed me. I don't want to expose her here but they had an inappropriate relationship. That I had NO idea about. Up until a year after it happened. So both of the people I loved and trusted the most betrayed me. I confronted her about it and she told me everything was true. Her excuse was "well I had a crush on him".
Oh wow, hey wouldn't it have been nice to know that before you went and teamed up with a person that hated me? A person I had feelings for?

(January 2016)
So I broke up that friendship and I broke it off with Joey too.
As I returned to school the first thing I find out is that Joey's plan was to make me fall for him, him sleep with me, and then leave me broken hearted. As soon as he knew I knew, he stopped talking to me.

And that's what happened on Glee.
Just kidding it happened to me.

(That rhymed)