tortured tutor (edited)

chapter fifteen

screw it

Skylers pov:
"Do you mind telling me why there's blood on the floor?" Ethan asked as he looked down to the bloody towels in my hand.
~ "no-uh sorry I-I don't know" I stuttered. Before he could say anything I walked into the laundry room very quickly. I took my time starting the laundry so that maybe it gave him enough time to leave but that didn't work. As I walked out of the laundry room I notice the floor was now clean but Ethan was still there. I sighed and I quickly walk towards the stairs without saying anything.

As I passed him he quickly stuck his arm out in front of my stomach blocking me. I didn't see his arm quick enough and I ran into his arm. Jumping back and winced in pain as my stomach stung just from the slight pressure.

"Skyler what's going on." Ethan asked sternly.
~"W-what do you mean?" I asked innocently. "Cmon skyler you think I didn't see the bloody towels you had?"
~ "I- I'm on my period and I got some blood on the towels." I mentally face palm myself, he's never going to believe me if I keep stuttering. "What about the bloody footprints?" He raises his eyebrow
~ "I already told you I don't know what that's from." I said confidently. "Ok fine, one last thing"
~"what is it?" I said annoyed "What's wrong with your stomach?"
~"Nothing" "It obviously hurt" he said
~ "It's just from being jumped" I tried to walk past him "The doctor told me about all the wounds you have.." he stepped in front of me "and the spot where I touched should be fine"
~"Well you must've just forgot because I did in fact get hurt there" I argued "k then lift up your shirt" he argued back
~"What?! No! I-I'm not wearing a bra" I tried to make up excuses. "Geez skyler I'm not asking you to take off your shirt just let me see your stomach!" He was raising his voice again. I don't want to get him more mad but I can't show him.

What do I do. What do I do?! I started to panic. My breathing was picking up. No Skyler no! It's no big deal calm down. I'll be fine. I tried to make myself calm down but it wasn't working. I've never been able to control a panic attack. I've also always been alone when I've had a panic attack. I have to get out of here. He can't see me like this. I need to go to the room but I can't move. I suddenly forgot how to move my feet. My vision was getting cloudy at the sides. I was starting to lose my balance and it felt like I wasn't breathing. I fell to the ground and felt my whole body ache from the impact but all I could think about was trying to breath.

I was breathing, really fast but it still felt like i wasn't getting any air. I heard Mumbling as if I had headphones on, I think it was Ethan talking to me but I couldn't tell. All I could hear was the ringing of my own thoughts. I started clawing at my throat trying to find air. I dug my head into my knees, gasping for air. I suddenly felt warm. There was muscular arms around me. I knew it was Ethan because he was the only one awake. "Shhhh it's ok" I could suddenly hear his voice, and his voice only. Just the quietness made me more comfortable. I dug my head into his chest. My breathing was still really fast but I wasn't gasping for air anymore. As I dug my head deeper into his chest he readjusted to where we were even closer.

"Shh just breath baby" as soon as he said baby my breath hitched. My breathing stopped completely. "Cmon sky breath, breath with me". As he held on to me tight, he started rubbing my back and I found some power to start breathing again. My breathing was slower then before. After I got my breathing back to normal I looked up at Ethan with my watery eyes and he was already looking at me. We just sat there in silence looking into each other's eyes. After a while he untangled us and stood up. I gave him a confused look and he just reached his arm down to help me up. Once I stood up he said, "let's get you to bed." We walked up the stairs hand in hand and he walked me to my room. "Look it's ok you don't have to show me your stomach, I just want to make sure you're ok" he started to walk out until I stopped him. I'll probably regret this later but screw it...

~"actually Ethan it's ok, you can see, I need help changing into some different pajamas." It was to hot to wear the other ones. He turned around and rubbed the back of his neck "Oh uh yeah ok" he started to walk up to me and he blushed, he quickly looked down. "Um Skyler I-i uh thought you said you weren't wearing a bra" 
~"yeah... i was lying" "oh ok um good" He grabbed the hem of my shirt and looked up at me for permission. I nodded and he slowly lifted my shirt up. I closed my eyes when he pulled my shirt off and why I opened them I saw Ethan.. scared? I've never seen Ethan like this, he looked, sad, scared, and angry all at the same time. All he could see was the white wrap the covered my entire stomach so he couldn't actually see how bad it was. He probably just thought it was bad because I had to put a wrap on it. He wasn't saying anything and I got kinda scared so I just looked down but he lifted my chin up with finger and walked closer to me. He moved his finger from my chin to cupping my cheek. My face started getting hot. "Skyler who did this to you" he whispered. He leaned his forehead against mine and closed his eyes.

~"That's not important" I whispered back as I closed my eyes. "How-how bad is it?" I opened my eyes and stepped back. He already knew so why not tell him more? He opened his eyes and gave me a confused look. I just took his hand and led him to the bathroom. After we got in the bathroom I closed the door and I started to unravel the wrap. Under the wrap revealed the now dark red gauze pads. I could hear Ethan's breath hitch. I soaked a towel and then took off the gauze pads that then showed my completely red stomach. I started to wipe off the blood and I looked up to see Ethan with watery eyes. My stomach wasn't bleeding anymore so I walked over to him and cupped his face this time. I turned his face so he was looking at me.

~"Hey hey Ethan it's ok, I'm fine I promise" just seeing him sad made me want to cry. In this moment all the pain in my body went away, my stomach, my legs, my ribs, my feet, none of that mattered. All I could think about was Ethan. This day... no my whole life has been messed up. At this point I just say fuck it.

Ethan looked up to me and I knew what I wanted to do. More like what I needed to do. I closed my eyes, leaned in and put my lips against his.