Lost Souls In School

Part - 8

Previously on Lost Souls In School

When Xander notices I am not talking to anyone he bends a bit forward and leans out, gesturing me to do the same. He says, 'I know we agreed to not talk about it but I just wanted to confirm you are well. You know....after the last time.... our trip down to medical room. I just can't get it out of my head. Why did you almost faint that day and why were feeling so dizzy by not just eating breakfast?'

I don't even want to think about that day or the day before that. And here Xander is sitting speaking all the things which I have been trying to forget the entire vacation and cried so much about. I have to keep my tears at bay and answer him so that he won't be thinking much into it. But his questions renders me speechless cause I never thought he will remember any of it.

'Uhh....That was...uhhh... I....' I stutter when I cannot think anything to give him answer.

Oh god I am doomed.

Finally realizing I don't have to answer him. I simply gather some courage and tell him, 'If you know I am not going to answer you should not ask. I don't want to talk about this. End of discussion. Its not like you told me about what I asked and even if you did, this is something I won't tell you anyways.' I don't care if I come out as rude I just wanted to make this clear that this topic is off limits. He is invading my personal space which I do not tolerate.

'Hey, I am sorry if I offended you. Its just afterwards we weren't able to talk and I thought now you might tell me. Its okay if you don't want to talk about it.' He replies immediately making me feel a bit guilty for my outburst but still I am sticking to what I said. So I let out a small its okay, noticing our history teacher has arrived and just like that I think he will forget about our conversation. But time and again I see his eyes still has curiosity and I think I see some concern too. Shaking my head because I have a habit of looking too much into things which should not be my business, not to gossip but just to know things. Well, what can I do its in my nature.

Just like a snap of fingers, days pass, weeks pass and just like that two months have passed. We all have fallen into our routine of studying, having fun and teasing teachers.

Today, our teachers hands us the schedule for the upcoming midterms and this would mean temporary change in sitting arrangements. I don't ponder much about it and check out the schedule, noticing they have given necessary time in between consecutive tests and I am satisfied with it.

Now, the new sitting arrangement will be where we have to sit according to our assigned roll numbers which means all the girls will be sitting in one column of benches and boys in the other two columns of benches. Nothing sexist about it, its just our class has half the number of girls that is why.

Also, another thing in this two months me and Xander have become a lot closer than before. I like it, I like talking to him. I even talk much with his friends too. I am happy, I haven't been this happy ever since..... No, Violet don't think about that night.

It's the end of another school day. I go home, eat lunch with mom and talk about some other stuff. I tell her I have midterms starting this week, then I ask about my elder sister, Lillian who is in college. We usually talk to her when its her lunch time but I can't talk to her much during weekdays because of the school. She asks me about my preparations for the exams and I tell not to worry as I have got it covered. I help her out and go take a shower. Afterwards I start making schedules and checklists as usual which I do for each and every one of my exams then I start studying having no time to waste also I think I can cover much stuff today as I don't have any classes.

Finally, having been studying continuously for the nest 8 hours I get up and get ready for bed as I am damn tired. Kissing my dad goodnight, I go upstairs to my room and sleep.