Lost Souls In School

Part - 9

'Look, I have always wanted an honest relationship whenever I think about having a boyfriend and to have that I will have to tell him about me being an unwanted child'. Thinking about that night still dampens my mood as reminisce about it.

It was just few days before exams of 6th grade. I was done for the day, after cleaning up everything I go downstairs to kiss mum and dad goodnight as I do daily. But I stop abruptly when I hear my dad telling my mom, 'We will tell Violet when the time is right. Of course I know the timing is never perfect but we will tell her when she is old enough to know we don't still feel that way.'

I was about to open my mouth and ask what they were talking about but again I stop when I hear my dad continue, 'Till then we will never speak another word that we never wanted another child and that she was a bit of surprise to us because she is still very young and will start to think we don't love her. I don't want her to overwhelm herself with these things at being such a tender age.'

I almost stumble when dad's words clicked in my mind but catch myself last minute. I finally get a hold of myself and decide I should let my presence be known to them so I go back to my room and make unnecessary noise as to make them think I just got up. Stomping my way downstairs I smile up to them and just like always kiss them goodnight before finally making them think I went to sleep before I start crying.

I snap myself out of my reverie and bring my focus back on the present situation. I don't let myself wallow in self-pity I hate that. I don't need anyone's pity. I look up at Amelia and start speaking, 'I don't think Xander is ready to hear this or I am ready to tell him after I accept his proposal. Also, I don't want to lie to him about such a big situation and I am not in proper headspace too right now. I can't just drop this bomb on him. This is my situation to deal with. Just because we will be in relationship if I say 'yes' doesn't mean that he has to deal with all my problems. So, I can't do this. I like him to some extend that is more than friends but I shouldn't add the relationship to the equation right now.'

'Okay, I won't say anything as I know in a way you are right. And I cannot tell you what to do in this situation.' Amelia replies while I just nod in answer.

'Hey, you won't let know about me being the unwanted child even by mistake, right?'

'Of cour....' She drifts and I notice she is not exactly looking at me but at something behind me.

'Amelia! What is it?' I start to turn back to look where I find Xander is intently looking at us or more specifically at me and the way he looks at me tells me he heard everything. I look around to find if anyone other than him is from our class which I don't, so I let out a sigh of relief. But immediately tense again when I realize I will have to explain everything to Xander now.

He has look which tells me he is really very angry. I thought I will have to face his pity but instead he is fuming, okay that might be an exaggeration but you got the point right.

He starts backing away so I have to sprint behind him yelling his name. He stops abruptly which almost makes me collide with him, but I catch myself on time. Please I mean this is not some totally cliché movie.

'Xander, why are you so angry? If you're angry because I am going to reject you, then that is really not fair. I mean you asked me, I have the right to decline or accept otherwise that is not asking.' I let it all out in one breathe.

'Violet, do you really think that I am angry because of this, so it tells me you think very lowly of me. I got angry when you said you can't bother me with your problems even if we both will be in a relationship. That hurt Violet really very much.'

I am really shocked to hear and to find out he is so willing to help me get out of this is really touching. Gosh, he shouldn't be so sweet when I am going to reject him which is already really hard for me. I am at a lose of words, I really don't know what to say.

'Listen Xander I will explain everything to you okay? But promise me you will never ever speak a word about it to anyone. Promise me.' I bring my hand towards him. He looks at my hand for a few seconds then clasps it tightly with his hand, which creates a tingly feeling in my body, and says 'I promise.'

'Ok then I will pass you my notebook after writing everything in it till then you will have to wait.'

I start to turn walk away from him but turn back to say. 'And yes Xander if I am telling you everything doesn't mean I am saying yes to you. I am telling you because I feel comfortable doing so.'

Withthat I walk away, my head high and also I can feel his eyes on my back.

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Hello readers!

I know a really long time but I am having a bit of trouble with my college applications that is why. 

Anyways, now I will definitely try to update every Saturday at this time and I have already written a few chapters in advance. 

What do you think will happen now? How will Xander treat Violet? WIll Xander not tell anyone? Will he treat her differently which is something Violet hates? 

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